When will it stop?

Im sorry in advance for whining but enough is enough and i cant take much more! Im still extremely sick and now have confirmed 2 more surgeries for next year- repeat of sinus surgery & then ovarian cysts. Im sick, im in pain, im tired and im FAT.

Tonight im going to an engagement party where all my posh friends are super skinny, super pretty, super perfect- and then there's me who is the token fatty in all the photos thanks to a mix of Zoloft and Fibro. i cant get comfortable in this skin, and a simple thing like driving for 45mins to an engagement party and having a late-ish night will set my health back further. i will pay for it tomorrow.

I cant sleep cos im in pain. but my self esteem is at rock bottom and that hurts the most.

Maz XX

Mazfire dear,

Your looks may not be what you expect or wish for. But girlfriend you have a beautiful heart and soul. And that is the part that actually counts. I am one of the few people out there that does not take looks into account but the matters of the heart and soul. I have a best friend who weighs in at well over 400lbs I love her to death. And to me she is just beautiful. Just like yourself.
Give yourself a big hug and remember you are beautiful no matter what others see on the outside.

I'm sorry you have more surgery to go through. It is rough and hard to deal with. But you will feel better once its all over with!

Enjoy yourself tonight the best you can! Hang in there!

(((HUGS)))