Kam,
Thank you so much for sharing and congratulations on your sobriety. I am very proud of you. I too understand how easy it is to hide in substance use but in the end it is never the right answer and our demons are still there to deal with.
Alex, I have been following your thread and I hope what you have read here helps you make a decision that will affect the rest of your life. Welcome to the A & P Forum. We are here to support you.
Kitt