Role Call - Let us hear how you are doing?

Camylou,


I am so glad to hear you are doing better.



Most antidepressants are believed to work by slowing the removal of certain chemicals from the brain. These chemicals are called neurotransmitters (such as serotonin and norepinephrine). Neurotransmitters are needed for normal brain function and are involved in the control of mood and in other responses and functions, such as eating, sleep, pain, and thinking.



I hope you continue to feel better.



Gentle Hugs,



Kitt

Good Morning All,


This week has been rainy and gloomy but the sun is out today.



I am feeling a little down this week but we were so busy the past couple of weeks so this is most likely normal.



I do miss having any close friends even though it has been 4 years now since I retired early.



I do have my wonderful dog to hug and spoil so life is good.



Gentle Hugs,



Kitt

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Being retired from work you loved is not all good
you do go thru emotional n even pysical pain
imho more nurses do but am sure other ppl do as well
when working i always felt neede n loved my job in that field
it has been hard to let it go at times
but like kitt
i look at
life is good
hugs
lyn

Well at least you are making progress with the crying
hv you told yr doc the meds keep you up n you are not getting enough sleep..which in turn coulld mk the a/p worse
it does for me
keep positive n you hv climbed a hurdle already
kudos for that
ty for sharing
lyn

It's been awhile since I've been around, so I'll send a warm greeting to all of you. :)

I have a dentist appointment tomorrow morning at 1030 (it's 1245am right now) and I'm pretty stressed about it. Dental work is THE most scary thing I have to endure, I've found, and I'm quite nervous about how I'm going to react when I have to wake up in the morning and go down there alone.

It's only 4 blocks from my house, so I obviously will be walking, but to me it's still the most petrifying 4 blocks ever.

Last time I had to go (in December) I took 2mg of my sublingual ativan, and it did literally nothing at all.

We'll see how I do. I normally suffer from a rapid heartbeat when I don't get much sleep as is, so with this keeping me up, and me having had a nap from 9-1030pm tonight, I don't hold out much hope in falling asleep before 3, but I will try my best.

The reason I have to is that I've been in pain on/off for a month and finally made an appointment to go back. One of my molars needs to be pulled, as does a wisdom tooth on the other side of my mouth. Yeesh, in December I had a molar pulled and ended up with dry socket. Now that's pain!

Other than the fear of dentistry, I have to get a job in the next week or two, as my Employment Insurance benefits end. I've been out of work since last July when I got laid off, and have been on EI since around Mid September when I finally got approved.

Honestly, I haven't tried that hard to get work, as at first I was enjoying the time off with my severance pay, and went on two mini vacations (one with old co-workers and one with old high school friends) in province to Whistler and Saltspring Island; respectively.

But since that late last summer, I have been coasting. My anxiety increased ten fold and I just figured, well I'll get some help and find some work when I'm ready.

Well here we are, I had weekly one on one meetings with a counsellor for 10 weeks, but that's since ended over two months ago...and now I'm forced to find a job or rent doesn't get paid.

The economy in Vancouver isn't great right now as is, and I may have to accept a low paying job to begin with. With a college diploma in business management collecting dust in my closet somewhere, the idea of making minimum or close to minimum wage somewhere isn't exactly enticing to me right now. I started my last job at $9/hr as a bilingual tech rep and worked that into a managerial position by the time I was laid off.

I just don't want to have to spend another year or two 'moving up' just to keep my head above water. I need to learn to think more positively like I do for other people and their situations.

Also, my IBS has gotten quite a bit worse these days, so getting a full-time job away from my comfort zone of home and my own bathroom is the most embarassing thought of all. The last two weeks hasn't been too bad, cause the tylenol 3's I have taken ad hoc for my tooth pain always helps with diarrhea (and I'd much much rather be constipated than have the big D...trust me), but normally I have to go 10-15 times a day, especially if I'm stressed out.


Alright, that's a lot to chew on. I'll let you guys know how the dentist went when I get home tomorrow.

Take care.

Hi everyone.  It has been a while since I've been here.  Been dealing with a lot of emotions.  My Mom was diagnosed with endometrial cancer and had a total hysterctomy May 26 and is still recovering and we found out that it is the 2nd most aggressive form you can get.  She starts chemo July 13th and will continue 3 weeks on/1 week off for 6 months.  I spent upwards of 15 hours a day in the hospital room chair next to her bed when she was in for 3 days after the surgery.  She came home and couldn't lay down so sat in her rocking chair in the livingroom and Dad and I alternated sleeping on the couch next to her in case she needed anything.  Physically she is recovering well from surgery.  Emotionally, well, you can imagine how shocked and scared my family is.  Mom has a determination and stubborness and positive attitude like noone else I know (although scared underneath).  She is determined to be up to full capacity by this weekend so she can enjoy the HUGE 50th wedding anniversary party we are throwing for she and Dad.  Yes, you saw that right, 50 years and more in love than ever.

I'm putting up a wall around me emotionally and keeping things to myself cause right now I am following in Mom's footsteps and had cervical biopsies last week for possible cancer.  Awaiting the results at this point in time.  Hoping and praying for benign.  Other than Mom and Dad, have not told anyone else in my family as they all have families of their own and have enough on their plates to deal with.  Will tell them if and when there is something they really need to know.

I've gotten out all my books and dusted them off and am reading and working with the CBT and journaling and everything I can think of to stay strong and in the present moment for Mom and Dad.

My life is not my own right now but that is okay.  My family knows me as the caretaker and I am full on into that mode and will stay that way.  I cannot let myself cry.  I'm scared but cannot show that in front of anyone.

Wish I could say I was great and my world was beautiful but I'd be lying.

Now gonna try to catch up with everyone. 

Kitt, I just wanted to let you know that I'm doing great. I haven't had a panic attack since this last Saturday, and I wanted to tell you why I think this is happening. I am a Christian and and Bible talks about demonic spirits that attack people in all sorts of ways, especially in the mind. While I was having the panic attacks, I began to wonder if maybe it was demonic oppression. When I talked to my mother on Saturday, I poured out my heart to her and said I just didn't know what to do; I was having panic attacks every day and I needed to go to work to avoid having to go on disability. She told me that she had already felt in her spirit that I my mind was being attacked demonically, and she and I prayed together and rebuked satan in the Name of Jesus, to get out of my mind and leave me alone, and that I was a child of God and the devil had no place in me. Since then, I have had no panic attacks. God is real, Jesus is real and Praise the Lord, I am free from these attacks! I went to see the psychiatrist yesterday and he diagnosed me with major depressive disorder and panic disorder, but he's looking to taper me off of the alprazolam because it is addictive. I still feel great. The medication is finally helping me, and I'm having no attacks. I would like to get off all my medication sometime in the future, but I will have to be tapered off of it as well. It's great to be able to go work and not have an attack, to work through the day and go home satisfied that I've done my part and not left everyone in a lurch because I wasn't there. I hope that everyone here gives their heart to Jesus and let Him help them, because He knows exactly what to do. God bless everyone!

Still fighting the severe headaches n body aches from dang flu byt at least when i go for walks i do feel a bit better
not so scared being out in public bow w.o hearing
ill make it....

great to see the good things posted n steps
great thread idea KITT
huggs
lyn

anxiety wise, I am stilll not driving because of anxiety.....

but my daughter took me to a 3 day trip and we had so much.fun. swimming, eating in nice resturants.I bought some new clothes and fancy sandals for summer.... when one doesnt drive a lot of needs go unmet but on the trip solved that...

hugs,Caren

 I'm doing great, still having problems with a bit of work-related stress but that as they say 'comes with the job'.  Haven't had another panic attack.  I'm so glad I can work and not have to drop everything and leave because I feel like the world is collapsing around me.  The Lord Jesus is with us always, and is here to help whenever we need it (or when He thinks He needs to intervene, He does, too).  I'm still on the Xanax and Prozac because I really do think I've got a lack of serotonin and GABA, and those medications are working fine.

Have a great 4th of July weekend and God Bless!

Camylou

Ben, wonderful that you are doing better! May the Lord bless you with His peace and may you be free of Asperger's Syndrome in Jesus Name! Have a great 4th of July weekend!
Camylou

Am really having a rough go this time around with cait in bc
she has not contacted me thru cell..or on fb..
it hurts really bad
we hv lost so much this past yr plus
but i will forge on
i cant do anything but
hugs to all
lyn