Having To Live Apart From My Husband

 I've been living at my parent's house a whole day now, but I am pretty sad about having to live apart from my husband, who is living with his grandmother.  The depressive feelings are trying to sink in, and I fight not to cry.  I need to call him and talk to him.  Now I'm trying to keep up with changing addresses on everything, and my bills are coming in that I can't pay.  They will have to go unpaid unless by some miracle from God some money comes my way so I can pay them.  It is very stressful and I hate to ask my parents for any more money; it pains me.  Please pray that the Lord will help me find favor with Social Security and the OPM-FERS Disability people so I can receive my benefits from them.  I so need the money to pay for my healthcare, my medicine and some bills.  Petition the Lord that my parents will be financially blessed so that they can pay their own bills.  Hopefully I will get better from these panic attacks and be able to work; my parents have talked about sending me to school so I can learn a new occupation.  There is so much going on in my mind right now, it's all so new and it's a mess and I want to be with my husband!   You guys, it's the pits.  It's not that I'm not thankful that my parents were able to take me in, it's just now I'm not with my husband and I was with him every day.  My cat is adjusting well but hasn't had a face-to-face encounter with the dog just yet, I just hope she adjusts to that too.  Do I sound like a whiney-hiney?  I feel like one.  Well, I'm going to shut up now about my problems and just pray.  I love you guys and hope everything is going well with you, and that you may receive "joy unspeakable and full of glory".

Camylou

Camy,

I am sorry to read this and I wish the two of you could have both moved in with your parents to get through this rough time.  Like  SC,  I am wondering how far apart you are from each other ?

I will keep you and your wishes in my prayers and I hope  the two of you will be back together again soon.

Kindly,

Kitt

Whiney-hiney?! I never heard that one before - kinda funny.

I know you clearly have a lot going on at once right now and I wonder how much the pressure to "get better now!" so that you can go back to work, bring in some money, and live with your husband again is adding to your A/P. Financial stress has been a part of my life for years. At one point I actually closed down my bank accounts and transferred my money to someone else. They opened a new account and began paying my bills as they came in for me. This allowed me to stop looking at the bills, the declining bank balance each month, and worrying about where the money would come from to pay the bills. My family is still helping me financially, but more than that not looking at the balance all the time has really helped by giving me one less thing to worry about (and it is/was a big one).

I hope you're able to talk with your husband on the phone each day if you can't get together in person. If you can get together in person, I would suggest trying to look at this as an opportunity to connect with each other in a way you may not have in some time. In other words most of us get into routines, but now things have changed for you. Maybe the two of you can start "dating" again. Walk through a park and look at the changing leaves. Get a cup of coffee or tea at a cafe. Invite him over for dinner, or meet him at his new place for dinner. Not all "dates" have to cost money and who knows... maybe it'll spark a little more romance. I'm not suggesting that the two of you were ever growing apart... but they do say "distance makes the heart grow fonder". Being temporarily apart may actually remind you how much you love and appreciate each other.

Love to you too Camy! Sorry to hear about your debit account, make sure that's all secure and taken care of! The good news is if you don't have much...there's not much for them to get away with:P
Good to hear that you are getting some rest, enjoy the nap, and continue to take care of yourself sweetie.
Talk to you soon,
Scaredy Cat

I got all the paperwork done at the bank (cancelled debit card, getting new one with new number) except for giving them a return receipt for mailing a Certified letter to PC Tools, Inc. The bank will need that to file a fraud charge. I took a look at the Disability stuff and went "WHOOOO!" A whole lot of stuff to go through, mail, etc. I am doing my best not to stress out but it's tough. Kitt, Scaredy Cat, sleep tight and be rested in the loving arms of Jesus. I am heading to bed myself now, it's getting late and I've already took my nighttime meds. I love you and am praying for you, as I know you are praying for me. Talk to you later,
Camylou

The other day it almost overwhelmed me, but my faith in God and knowing that He knows everything that will happen and that He can change things is what is keeping me going. Without Him, I can do nothing. It is by His strength that I am able to go through a day without retreating into my bedroom and hiding. Please pray that my doctors will do their part in sending their files to HRSSC so that I can obtain disability. Also, that my insurance hasn't lapsed. There is so much to keep up with, the oncoming bills, the fraudulent use of my debit card and having to deal with that, the disability stuff and then keeping myself sane. It's all the Lord, it has to be---or I would be in bed hiding. His strength carries me every step of the way. God bless you, Fugs, and have a great Saturday. May you find His peace and strength to carry you. Talk to you later,
Camylou

Thanks, percycat! You have no idea how much it means to me for you, my dear friend, to talk to me and lift me up and pray for me. I love you so very much and I pray God blesses you for blessing me. I know everything will work out according to God's plan--He just had to jerk the 'rug' out from under me so I can see it's Him all the way. Got to head to bed now, so I'll see you tomorrow. Peace, love, and joy to you my friend.
Camylou