Hello and welcome! I did have to edit your post. We are allowed to recommend things that have helped us, but offering them to others members, for sale (even though intentions were good) is against forum rules. (see forum rules for full list)
Now that that is out of the way, thanks for sharing your story with us. It sounds like you have done a lot of hard work on your recovery-that's great! I hope that you will find this is an awesome place of information, support and sharing. You will meet many members with the same struggles and triumphs as yourself. We look forward to getting to know you better. Post anytime with questions, vents, or constructive advice for others
Take care,
Scaredy Cat