Doctors today and feeling more positive

Good MOrning Peeps

Ok so i was at the Doctors this morning and she had referred me to my Comunity mental health team (they deal with everything from depression to seriously mental ill patients) I was 100% up for therapy and i have told her this and hopefully within a few weeks i will get an appointment :=D

This has made me rather happy as I am depserate to start some kind opf therapy treatment wether it be CBT or another type!!

The Dr has also recommended i stay on my BUspar for the forseable future ( few months at least) and has also given me a small dose (20mg pd) of prozac, also still to take my temazepam in the evening when needed for sleep.

I must admit all this news has calmed me somewhat knowing i have the safety net of the benzo for night time, although she has advised me to try and only take it every other night I still feel calmed by the fact that i have the option if i need it!!!

Also big step for me today also was........... I usually only go in the car to the doctors and back again because i start to panic about being outside too long, BUT,
Today i managed to fill my own prescription and wait for it, also go to the bank and pay my bills and i also managed to go to my local bistro for brunch with my Mum and GUESS WHAT!!!!!!!!! Shock horror.........I ate a BLT!!!!!!!! The 1st solid proper food i've eaten in about 2 or 3 weeks other than soup or toast............ It might sound quite big headed of me but i am thoroughly proud of myself for taking these steps and enjoying the fact i'm having a semi good day!!!!

In all honesty I never belived that gettin up in the moring and gettin dressed and going out even for a short while was so much more theraputic than waking up and not gettin out of bed and sitting a wallowing in my self pity (cause tbh thats what i do most of the time)

So i agree with everyone who has said it gettin up and gettin moving makes you feel at least 50% better than you do when you closet youself away.

I just really wanted to share my experience with everyone to show you that you can make a difference by taking those small steps and sometimes the big ones too!!!

I wish everyone a good day and sending lots of positive and healing vibes!!

Huge Hugs for all!!!

And also many many many thanks to Kitt, S.C, Hibee, Babette, and a few others who have given me some absoloutly Wonferful advice and have always had an answer or opinion in everything that i ask!!! Also to everyone else i have spoken with over the past week or so I thank you all for your encouragement advice and tenderness it has helped a lot!!

Much Love

Kitty
KiKi
KIrsty
Ninja
(so many names for me hahahahaha)

Good job

Kiki,

You have made great strides and knowing that you are going to get professional help does feel good as I know from experience that hope goes a long way in feeling better.

Yes, getting up and dressed is a goal I set myself years ago.  I make this a must do daily as well as I make my bed.  Any nap time is spent on the couch. 

Kudos to you and lots of hugs and support coming your way.......you are a work in progress. 

Kindly,

Kitt

I totally agree!!! I felt the same way.. I got out of the house, and actually enjoyed it.. I almost started feeling like Ididn't want to go back home haahaa!! Great to hear that it was theraputic for you to get out.. Now try it again and again..

You have started with the first step. That's always the hardest. Good for you!! A lot of us here have gone through that first step back to trying to find the way back to a so called normal life. A few years ago all I could do is go to work and back home. I couldn't go out of that cycle. I got to where I couldn't even leave work once there until quitting time. On weekends I didn't want people around me to see how bad I was and I was so relieved when no one would want to come over...boring for my husband. It was those baby steps that got me to come around and now, I am not completely cured but I am so much better. I definitely understand.

Great job N.K.!!! I am very proud of you for venturing out and doing more that you thought possible!

It is a process, taking your life back from A/P, but it can be done. You are wise to take small, but increasing steps. And you should certainly be proud of the accomplishments (blt-yeah!)

I am glad that you are able to anticipate getting out for walks and such. I have found this to be sooo helpful. I just got a new phone-the kind with music (still trying to figure a lot of stuff out on it, but got the music program up & running 1st thing!) and I love walking/jogging with tunes!

If you don't mind me asking, what is M.E.? and how does it affect you? not trying to be nosy, I'm just not familiar with this term. If it affects your ability to exercise, then you are right to just do what is within your limits. A light stroll is as effective as anything:)

Keep up the good work, and hope to hear more good news soon!
S.C.

so very proud of you...hang in there!:)