Hello my attacks started back in August 2010. We got the news my husbands company that he worked at for 15 years in Wisconsin was moving all the equipment to Mexico. We had just moved 3 years ago from Illinois where i was loving my job as a fitness instructor and Yoga teacher. I was on the top of my game and loved it. So here i am finally getting grounded in Wisconsin working at an Outdoor store teaching Yoga at t he Park and a beautiful Gulf Resort. My husband found another job Thankfully in Michigan which is a great job as plant manager but will be a change for him because he was always the chemist. So we decided we would have to rent our home out that we just bought and move. Tenant is finally meowing Thats another story.. I am not cut out to be a landlord.. My oldest son had 21 just got married in may and my middle son left for the Air force . My youngest son decided he was going to go with us and start school here in Michigan once we got settled.. This is very hard to leave our home and Son i am very emotional the day of the move.. My first attack happened driving to Michigan following my husbands car with 2 huge kayaks on the roof. It had been a long time since i drove on freeways this fast. My son was mad the whole trip that would take 9 ours took us 12. I did not know what was happening but i was shaky, nervous not wanting to finish the drive.. We finally arrived to our house that we would live in Michigan is Beautiful i say to my self I can do this.
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All was going well until the first week in October. I was taking the dogs in the back yard and i felt out of my body, shaky, scared heart was racing. I called my husband and he said just relax. It got so bad that i told my son to call 911 .I have never been in a ambulance in my life. they told me in ambulance my heart was doing funny things.. Then I became freezing and thought in y mind am i dieing ? Get to hospital they run all kinds of tests after 3 hours they tell me all looks good i had an anxiety attack. they gave me a shot i felt stupid and embarrassed how can this happen to me. I a yoga teacher just breathe....
I was given a prescript
ion but i said i could beat this i don't need drugs.. i put the prescript
ion away in a drawer.. Well it happened again 4 days later and i couldn't get out of my car i was so shaky again .So my husband picked up the medication which i use sometimes every day. Once i went off it for a week But then i found out my dad was going with Hospice a few weeks ago So now I am facing losing my Dad. I just ran out of pills and became scared what am i going to do if they dont refill my pill? They did refill it and in y mind it makes me feel comfortable to have them just in case.. It is awful to depend on the prescript
ion lorazepam 0.5 mgs but it helps me right now. I started to practice Yoga again on my own not teaching yet and riding my spinning bike in the house.. I am hoping one day i can be back to my happy self. I was reading this post today and saw so many going through what i am so i thought i would share my story.
regards Michigan yoga girl wannabe
Yoga girl in Michigan
