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Posted 1/31/2011 7:57 PM (GMT 0)
gosh, just as soon as i thought the EMDR was helping, (and im sure it is).... its not an "overnight" fix.... i sit here at my desk at work,,.. haveing anxiety. its not a panic attack (yet)... ive been able to hold it off, although ive been wanting to take my xanax, ive held off on that too. (i take it as needed)... it started this morning, feeling a bit dizzy... then i talked myself out of that, now i have a soar neck, and i do get these often.. i get massages often to help with that.... but, then a co-worker came up to me and told me her mom's friend died of a heart attack.... she was sitting in a chair, and her neck started hurting.. and that was that... so, now my left arm feels rubbery, and its got nerve twitches in it, and i have a head ache, and my neck hurts.... blah blah flippin' blah!!!  im soooo tired of this. thing is.. i KNOW if i took my xanax... in 30minutes from now, id be JUST fine!!! so, WHY cant i calm myself down!?!..... i will sit and do this ALLLLL day long now, until i take somthing... im trying to breath deep.... im trying to relax... Writing to you all was my last resort... i didnt wanna sit here and complain and just babble.... but, i thought.... maybe it will make me feel better, just venting and letting others know how i feel.....  *sigh*.... anxiety is sooooo yucky!... ive had it on and off for 26 years, and ya'd think id have a handle on it by now!..grrr!!!
Posted 1/31/2011 9:00 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Babette, sorry that you are having a hard day anxiety wise. I am glad that you see it for what it is though, just a rough patch that will pass. Keep up the calming techniques, and they will prevail!

I have had a hard time when I hear stories of other people's serious health issues. I use to worry and 'take on' every one else's disease/ailment. One thing that helped me was to realize that this was all focused in my health anxiety. I only identified with that specific fear, because my anxiety is wired up that way. If I heard that a co-worker's friend/relative had won the lottery, I certainly didn't jump and shout "Yeah! I must be next!!!" or even if the news was bad, like someone's car was stolen, I didn't start to worry over that...just the health stuff.

I realized that my brain, not reality was producing this fear (and resulting symptoms) I could then control this, as I now had this knowledge and power over the A/P!

I hope this will help you as well. Keep up the good work in your therapy, and keep us updated:)

Take care,
S.C.
Posted 1/31/2011 9:46 PM (GMT 0)
THANK YOU SC for responding!!! i think i might think that way too!... completley. i take on everyones "health" issues, but nope... certainly not wining the lottery or anything... that does make sence. i finally had to "give in" to my anxiety and take a 1/2 of a xanax, i was jsut tired of fighting it... (on and off all morning... 5 hours). my left arm still feels funny, but between reading your post and taking a 1/2 of med, im feeling a bit better.
Its such a love/hate feeling i have in regards to how we all feel about this., im soooo very thankful that i have all of you to relate to me and me relate to you regarding this issue, but on the other hand, i feel so bad that we all deal with the same awful thing... hense the Love/hate feeling. thank you all who are reading this for your suport, and for posting your posts that i can read and relate to , and for you SC for responding to me. thank you!

Babette
Posted 1/31/2011 11:36 PM (GMT 0)
babette66

Hey there, you are not alone as I too will identify with a story of someone dying suddenly. I especially feel anxious when the person is younger then I am and I begin to feel like I need to start living my life before I lose out. Does that sound far fetched ?

My pdoc has told me that I have a tendency to catastrophize bad news I hear and that triggers my anxiety. I have worked hard at staying in the moment and remembering that just because it happened to someone else does not mean I am next in line for any bad happenings.

When I worked full time and would wake up feeling anxious I would take a small dose of my anxiolytic medication. It always seemed to help even if it was just in my mind.

I have been in therapy many times and worked through the online CBT here but I still have break through anxiety which I believe all of us do.

Never feel like you are complaining, you are sharing your feelings with us and that is a good way to help you get past the anxiety.

Gentle Hugs to you,

Kitt
Posted 1/31/2011 11:47 PM (GMT 0)
thank you too Kitt, ive JUST started the beginnings of the online CBT, i started it last week, im not very far into it, but i plan to do more of it when i have time. Im also seeing a therapyst and doing the EMDR. so, hopefully... all of it combined will help, it has seemed to already. i really love and am so thankful ive found you all here on this website. May you all have wonderful, anxiety free week! :-)

Babette
Posted 2/1/2011 12:29 AM (GMT 0)
Babette,

Not too long ago, someone I know who is only a few years older than me (I'm 28) passed on suddenly from a heart attack. I had anxiety from the news because if someone so young could die suddenly like that, I could too (a family history of heart disease doesn't help). I had a few sleepless nights over it too.

What helped me was positive self-talk, keeping myself busy with activities and breathing exercises. It's been a long time since I touched Xanax, and it used to be my lifesaver. For me, controlling my breathing really helps during anxiety/panic episodes.

Hope you're feeling better!

Pinks
Posted 2/1/2011 12:42 AM (GMT 0)
THanks Pinks!.... im really trying to focus on the breathing,... i know this to be true, but i have a hard time believing, how can such a SIMPLE thing such as breathing, help me with my panic attack. i try to hold off on the xanax, im petrified of being addicted to any meds, thats why im trying so hard with the online CBT, and the EMDR w/ my therapyst, and this site, and breathing and meditation... all of it. I hope your doing well too Pinks, i just repsonded to your post as well. *wink-wink*, Take care!

Babette.
Posted 2/1/2011 1:19 PM (GMT 0)
I hear ya. One of my biggest triggers is thinking about how I COULD theoretically die at any moment. Sometimes I'm too scared to drive, especially now that it's winter. I push it from my mind though as best as I can. I chalk it up to a fact of life. I can't do anything about it so why worry?
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