Who am I talking to?

lol I couldn't think of a better thread name but, it's interesting because I come here frequently for the aide of others and to try at least help others and I feel somewhat drawn to you guys lol and I was wondering, who are you? like share with us who are you, what you do, post a pic if you have one, what are your passions? It'd be cool to get to know just exactly who I'm talking to

my passions are nutrition, playing guitar, video games, boxing and God

What a great idea..I have often wondered the same thing. But you know 3D, you didn't really post much about yourself.

My story in a nutshell is; I am married, I have 4 grown children and I work full time. I am a daughter, sister, wife, mother, grandmother.  My hobbies are, painting, reading, gardening. We go camping and fishing whenever we get the chance.  My anxiety has probably been with me most of my life I just didn't realize it. I just knew I wanted to be like normal people.  I don't talk to many people about how I feel, I come here. I know everyone who posts understands and I understand them also. I am not taking any medication for it and I'm doing a pretty good job handling it. It does show it's ugly head on probably a weekly basis but not to where it was even a year ago. I know my symptoms and I can calm myself down when they start to show. My anxiety shows up in health related ways. I get palpitations, burning skin, lump in the throat and all around nervousness. This site and all who post here have given me the comfort the medical society didn't and for that I'm grateful.

haha actually you guys have a much better idea than I had lol I didn't really think about posting the story as to why I'm here in the first place, ok here I go...


I got it from my mom, but I've always been kind of an emotional person. I am the youngest of 3 by 8 years or so and my older siblings would beat up on me and as an result I'd get special treatment from my parents. So now I was the spoiled one and I learned to cope with things by running to my parents. I do notice when I have my anxiety episodes now it comforts me when my mom or dad are around, maybe my whole anxiety is just something that's holding me back from completely becoming a man. Because I am in that period of my life. I just graduated college and pretty soon, if God's will permits, I'll be starting my own family and working a real job for a huge chunk of my life and I know a lot of pressure is going to be put on me. With anxiety I do feel like I let people down a lot, sometimes when my girlfriend and I go out we have to leave abruptly because my anxiety causes a headache or chest pain and I immediately think the worse, it goes away as soon as I get relaxed again so I know I have to just face it and deal with it.

How my anxiety started? Well like I said I've always been sort of anxious to some degree, I'd say more than the average person but never really a disorder until now, and one time I indulged in some bodybuilding product called Jack3d (contains caffeine and other strong stimulants) that had my heart racing without me even exerting any physical activity and that's when I had my first panic attack, after that I went well for a while but did another physical scare happened that made me think I had some serious disease but thankfully it wasn't at all and it just went on and on from there once these anxiety feelings became more prevalent and I DID NOT know what they were or how to deal with them. I would lose sleep over these feelings and I was in a constant panic, but once I learned what anxiety is that (THANKFULLY) subdued greatly.

now where I stand? Honestly guys I need ya:( maybe it's just today, but I feel pretty darn hopeless, I feel pessimistic about my future and I find myself losing faith in living, seems like things can go good for a while but then something shakes me up again and I fall right back down, I question if I'll ever be permanently up again. I don't know, I'll just do the best I can. I guess the reason why I feel like this is because my girlfriend's parents said I look sick and it made me feel like there is something wrong with me

thewulasvegas,

you got a great bill of health, and the correlation between cholesterol and heart disease is soo weak it's not even funny, so you really got nothing to worry about

in fact I read an article stating people with high cholesterol live longer than those with low lol go figure

debaser,

that is an awesome picture, did you take those? are you in a band? lol pretty cool stuff

do you have anything I can hear online? what kind of music do you play? lol

I'm going to start making youtube videos performing some stuff I wrote, hopefully I can share those with you guys:)

also, you are a great photographer, I have a few friends really into photography so I know a thing or 2 and your photos certainly dont fail to impress

No I don't have anything digitized except for a few songwriting "sketches". Drummer in my last band took off in the middle of the night to NYC. He owned all the recording equipment and none of us has been able to get anything back. If you mixed up Swervedriver, Sonic Youth, Pixies, and Guided by Voices, maybe that would sound like how I play.

Thanks. Did you see the whole site? Those ten photos are just something I picked out randomly. Since I set it up I've been meaning to put my 20 best photos there but I haven't gotten around to it.

naw I didn't see the whole site till I saw this post, checking it out now and lol @ the lamb hanging from a candy cane haha

you have amazing talent and your photos are very urban, especially with the effects you add

I grew up as a kid watching his fights loll reminds me of my youth

thanks for sharing man

I didn't have an anxiety problem until years after my discharge. about eight years. I did get hurt and received a medical discharge, but while painful it honestly wasn't that traumatic. I don't think my time in the Marines has anything to do with my anxiety.