Progressing..then relapse, picking up the pieces again...

Hi everyone... for the past month or so, the a/p was getting better, weaning off ativan pretty well too... and feeling more energetic. there were a few days here and there when i'd have moments of depression or some level of anxiety and the usual pains/aches here and there...but not too bad and it subsided rather quickly....

the last 2 days however i did feel like a panic was coming (no real cause?) but manage to talk myself down and it kind of went away and i didnt wanna dwell on it after that and focus on strengthening myself physically, emotionally and spiritually...

then.... came last nite, i came back from work, heart was beating a little fast...just thot its normal anxiety....went about doing a round of the laundry and was in the room about to have a shower...when i had palpitations which felt almost like the very frist time when i experienced it....except this time i tried to keep the fear out as much as i could. breathing exercises was out of the question, it was tough to do it at that moment, ...i suddenly forgot all the self talk too for a brief moment. and naturally i wonder if this was the end of me? anyhow quickly took a beta blocker, plus half an ativan and sat down and rub some medicated oil on myself...and abt 2 or 3 minutes later it subsided...

i still feel kinda out of sorts/moody/a little fearful this morning from the after-effects, ...now its a little better, back to picking up the pieces and trying not to dwell on it....it is normal to hv strong a/p out of the blue in the midst of progress? what do u guys do to keep the positive spirits going strong in such moments?

S.R.

Here is the part of HR where we say we are here to share.  I understand exactly how you feel.  I had been doing well on my med until I weaned off of it ( Effexor) - walking like  drunk on an cruise ship.  Feeling crappy and crying alot. 

I undrstand how you can feel pretty good one minute and then feel like the world is falling apart.  I keep telling myself this will pass but I wake up every morning fearfuly  of what the day will bring.

So I am right here with you and know you are never alone.

Gentle Hugs,

Kitt

*Hugs* thanks ladies for sharing..

S.C. i had to admit i wasn't keeping up with the relaxation and stretching exercises as much as when i was feeling lousy...
when i had a panic attack out of the blue, i kinda "forget" the coping tools at that moment and got focused on the body sensations instead. urgh.

i guess i'll try to maintain the simple exercises and do some revision from time to time on the coping tools/affirmations too...

Hey... You are up and talking about it .. that is great. just a set back. Sometimes I will have them and not see what triggered it at all. for me I name promises from God. I keep usually 3-5 like typed or written and in my pocket so if i feel a bit anxiety i can pull one out and read it to myself. I know some b heart but having something to hold helps me.

As everyone else said... it is just putting one foot down and the next.. keep on...keeping on...

my thought are with all of you .. May each day bring more joy than sorrow.
Diana