Roll Call - Check in When You have a Moment.

Good Afternoon A & P Members!

 

 

     It is another beautiful Tuesday evening! The sun has been shining, the birds are singing and summer  is on the way. Some of you are already getting hot humid weather and school is out so the children are home for the summer.  

      So, before we get too wrapped up in starting our summer vacations, please, stop by and let us know how you are doing ? Give us an update. We want to know how you are doing. Even you old time veterans who are lurking.

 

How are you feeling? 

How is your anxiety ?

What are your major plans for the summer?

How are you going to keep your anxiety levels down ?

hi kittt, major sleep issues. working on thiem my studies too and getting my bills paid. it has been very quiet here so i am getting used to my own company again. keeping busy helps my anxiety, esp with helping on the forums. have a nice day, jamie

Thanks all and come on everyone else --we want to hear how you are doing ?   

 

Sukay,  so good to hear from you now please do share with us.  I have missed you here in A & P. 

 

Hugs,

 

Kitt

Great Topic,

Feeling very good.  Anxiety is at a minimum for the time being.  This summer I plan on going canoeing and camping as much as possible with my wonderful husband (kids do not like to hang out with us anymore ).  Plan on continuing with vitamin therapy, working out and last night I made a pot of valerian root tea and slept like a dream.  I am so thankful each and everyday that I feel as well as I do and have come so far in the management of my disorders and that I have always had my HealingWell Friends with me all aong the way.

Full moon tonight, will be outside with my tea cup in hand sky gazing.

Gem

 

WITH MUCH THX. JAMIE.

Wow,  some great things happening in your lives and some struggles still going on but the best part is we are all here for each other.

I love reading your updates -  Keep Them Coming !

Gentle Hugs to All,

♥♥♥♥☺☺ ♫ ♫ ◊ ◊ ●_● Kitt♥♥♥♥

I will be moving 400 miles and will be getting new doctors - I hope I can find a good one.

down to 1/4mg of ativan each day and feeling very good -

biofeedback is helping and my organic diet is making me
feel good too.

What is EMDR?

vomiting before class. it has been a regular occurence. will talk to my doc about it. jamie.

thx scaredy not. it's not helping it any!!!!! jamie. just a little anxiety i guess.

welcome back.

I wish things were going well, but most days I feel like I'm hanging on by a thread! So many awful things happening around me and the stress is crazy. My sister-in-law was diagnosed with breast cancer in March, she's was getting chemo every week until two weeks ago. They stopped it so her body can recuperate for her surgery in July. She spoke with her surgeon last week and was told that her cancer is stage IV, not curable. We are all devastated. She and I are very close and to see her going through this is heartbreaking!!! Her son broke his foot last week and just had surgery to repair it on Friday as well!

On Friday, My other sister-in-law fell off the roof of their camper (they were cleaning it), and shattered her wrist, had a concussion and broke her back. She had a 6 hour surgery to repair her back today (Sunday) and will have surgery on her wrist Tuesday. She will be in the hospital for the week. My husband and I went down to sit with my brother-in-law (husband's brother) during the surgery and it was very hard to see him so upset. We didn't get to see her as they were having some trouble getting her to wake up, she awake and fairly alert now, so we are going to go see her tomorrow.

On top of it all, they just found a spot on my mother-in-laws mammogram!!! She is going in tomorrow to have another one done, if they still see the spot they will do an ultrasound and if they are still worried about it they will do a biopsy. We are all praying that this will turn out to be nothing!! All of this just months after my father-in-law completed chemo for lymphoma! (He is doing really well and so far PET scans have all been negative.)

When will it end???!!!

It just seems impossible that all of this is happening right now. These are all family members on my husbands side, and the stress for him is worrying me too. All of this is bringing back so much of my old way of thinking, worrying about my own health, obsessing over every little symptom, etc. I've got to be strong for my husband and his family, but it's getting harder every day. I just don't know where I'm going to find the strength or the peace to keep doing what needs to be done for everyone, and I need to be there. I'm reading my Claire Weekes books daily, doing relaxation and remembering to do the deep breathing, but sometimes it's just not enough and over the edge I go!

I have an appt. with my prescribing doctor tomorrow afternoon, and I think I'll talk to him about an anti-depressant to at least get me through this rough time. He has always tried to talk me out of anti-depressants because I do have a lot of side effects, but I'm more afraid of backsliding too far with the anxiety than I am of having side effects right now.

Thank you all for letting me vent and please share any advice!!!

I am glad so many of you are checking in and letting us know how you are doing. 

As I read of the good times and the struggles my heart goes out to each of you.  I suspect if I made a graph of my days it would look like a roller coaster with lots of hills and too many valleys.

 (((((((((((Junebug05)))))))))))))

I will share how I am doing right now................up and then down, down, down, then up, up, then down, way down.  I feel like a hot air balloon.

My MIL has end stage CHF and we are trying to provide someone to stay overnight with them every night.  Also they want a hot meal for dinner prepared for them most evenings.  My FIL is 90 years old and was never taught how to cook as my MIL was the queen of the kitchen.  We have just maxed out the Hospice services and increased meals on wheels to 5 days a week.  My in-laws fought to keep strangers out of their home as they wanted to maintain their independence but they are vulnerable so we have slowly brought in more help.

During the day we try to get one of us over to sit with them and I am the nurse on call. 

I do get calls frequently from my FIL, " Mom does feel good, she wants you to come over and check her".  He has called 3 times now for himself to be taking to the clinic as he did not feel well (stress and anxiety for him).

I am running on high octane and I am still kicking up my anxiety .......... I cry or try to nap so I do not have to think about my next challenge.  Tonight I will be spending the night at their house. 

There is much good in my life,  my hubby, my children and grandchildren and my wonderful dog, Memphis !

I continue to see my therapist and to come here and be with each of you.  Thank you for being here.

Gentle Hugs,

Kitt

 

 

Yeah Junebug, that is great news, and your family sure needed some! I will keep the other members who are not well in thought and prayer, as well as you and your husband! I wish you as much peace as is possible while you journey with your SIL through her illness...blessings to all of you in this time.

Anxious Annie, I am glad to hear that you are feeling good right now, and I hope that it coninues so for you! Good job in working on positivity and assertiveness:)

Kitt, you are doing such an awesome job of all that is being asked of you right now. I know I said it before, and I know that you know this already...but just a reminder to take care of yourself as well. Don't push too hard, because your well being is also important!

Hospice and Meals on Wheels are awesome (I went on a M on W delivery with my FIL when we visited in Feb-what a blessing!) but I know that your FIL and MIL find your personal touch and presence an incomparalbe comfort!

Take care eveybody, of YOU and yours!
S.C.