Hi Ian,
I was taking Doxycycline for 5 weeks (100mg/day) as an anti-malarial drug while I travelled through Cambodia.
The first night I took it I spent the entire night vomiting... that should have been the first sign my body wasn't going to handle those pills.
On my fourth day... I started crying for no reason. Literally, just turned to my boyfriend and said "I don't know why... but I feel like crying". And so I did. For about
a half an hour. Weirdest thing.
Then in my third week of taking it... I woke up from a dead sleep with my heart racing and telling my boyfriend that we were in serious danger and had to go back home. I couldn't explain to him what the danger was but I felt as though there was impending doom waiting around the corner. This feeling was so intense that we decided to start looking for tickets home to Canada but I eventually calmed down and we continued traveling. Over the next couple weeks I would experience unusual anxiety whenever it rained (when I used to find rain quite calming).
Then the really, REALLY horrible stuff started about
two weeks later. I woke up from a dead sleep with a bizarre fixation on self harm. And let's put it this way... this is a topic/notion I have never spent a millisecond of thought on. I woke my boyfriend up and he just said "it's those stupid pills" and I decided to stop taking them right then and there.
Ever since that night I've experienced a serious OCD problem with morbid thoughts. I know that these thoughts are not mine and are fleeting and that they will eventually subside once this poison is out of my system. I also find that it comes in waves - days where I'm pretty good and then others where I feel consumed by the thoughts. I also have not been able to sleep for 4+ weeks because I wake up every 1-2 hours with moderate panic attacks. I have also experienced what you say about
the eyes moving and restlessness but certain nights are better than others.
I am home now and recovering with my boyfriend and family. We have run some tests to check on my heart, urine, stool, blood, hormones, etc. but I know (like you) that it is this toxic drug. I am feeling more and more optimistic that I will get better.
I am doing my best to stay away from any anti-depressants, anti-psychotics, etc. because I fear that it will just temporarily mask what's going on in my body. Instead I've been focusing on eating well, drinking a TON of water, taking multivitamins (incl. b12), long walks, and talking about
what's going on. I feel this stuff slowly leaving my system and my good days are starting to outnumber my bad days :)
I hope that you had a speedy recovery, and feel free to e-mail me at with any tips/advice on how to get through this, or just for more support.
Edit: I am sorry we are not allowed to talk about suicide in the forums.
Thank you for your understanding.
Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 6/23/2011 8:39:04 AM (GMT-6)