Dawn - your words could have been mine verbatum about
thirty years ago - that's when I suffered the anxiety the worst - well maybe it wasn't the worst - it was just that at that time I didn't understand it as well as I do today. I only had MY mom to talk to you - she was great - but I always thought she was saying things just to make me feel better - not that they were necessarily true - but as the years have past I realize everything she said WAS true and now I find myself repeating her words here to try and help people like yourself who are going through this alone. Believe me I still have plenty of anxiety myself but somehow, between being able to vent on this site and experiencing it for so many years, it doesn't overwhelm me as much as it used to. It's too bad we have to suffer for so many years before we can realize that we're NOT alone, that we're NOT crazy, that millions suffer with us (just don't talk about
it outwardly much so we think we're the only ones who have these crazy thoughts, health symptoms, etc.) I will say that the times I suffer the most, for the longest periods of time, are the times I haven't been taking my Super B Complex pills - I swear they do help. I've also been on anti-depressants and Xanax at times too but, thankfully, not for real long periods of time. Remember that you're raising two teenage kids (mine are now 37 and 35, AND I still have a l5-year-old at home) and that's no easy task - especially when you're doing it alone and feeling rejected because your hubby left you - men don't usually make good caretakers - they want to be cared FOR. So give yourself some credit for the job you're doing and keep venting on this site - as I've said before, it's a wonderful group therapy forum and cheap to boot!!!