Christmas morning and I want to give up

This is supposed to be such a happy day.  Here I am stressing out and already ready to throw in the towel.  I have decided that I am going to bite the bullet and tell my doctor that I need more meds.  She has been wanting to give me anti-depressants but I have refused because all the ones I have tried have intensified my anxiety 100%.  I need your feedback on this one.  I take Xanax .05 morning and night.  Is there an anti-depressant out there that does not mess with the seratonin in the brain and make a zombie out of you all day.  I am desparate.

Hope your Christmas is a happy one.

Annie

Oh Annie, I hope you feel better soon, but I know how hard it can be! I found that Celexa made me feel worse in the beginning so I don't recommend anything like that, and Zoloft does make me feel like a zombie sometimes but I think that could be due to sleepless nights as I have a newborn plus pain! Zoloft hasn't increased my anxiety since taking it though and I don't get as much nausea but each medication is down to an individual need! I promised myself when I was pregnant I didn't need any more antidepressents and didn't want to go back on them when baby was born but unfortunately with all the health problems I had and fears I found I had no choice!

I hope you have a good day hun and try not to worry too much!

Annie, There are no SSRI antidepressants that don't affect the serotonin levels in your brain. Most SSRI's do cause a spike in your anxiety in the beginning, but it does go away.

I just recently went back on Zoloft after being on it 3 times before, I used to be just like you, and always told myself after the last time, that I was not going on any more medication, but there are some things we really have no control over, and if you feel you need to go back to the meds then so be it.

It is hard to accept the fact that you need a medication to help you feel "normal" again, but the way I look at it is, if people have to take meds for a heart condition, diabetes, high blood pressure, etc... they wouldn't refuse to take it because they didn't want to depend on a pill to stay healthy would they? We are no different, and if that little pill is going to make us feel better, then I say go for it.

I should also mention that I take xanax .5 twice a day too, just like you, one in the morning and one in the evening before bed. If I get anxious in between that time, I take a half of one. And especially before my "friend" I sometimes need that extra half of a pill.

I was prescribed .5 three times daily, but I only take it twice a day, except of course the occasional half that I take sometimes. And to be honest, the xanax has really helped with my transition back onto the Zoloft.

Don't beat yourself up about taking a med, I won't ever do that again because I know that I need it. Take care, ((hugs)) Fox