How is everyone tonight?

I seem to be one the upswing with 2 anxiety free days in a row after several weeks of feeling shaky and 'heavy' for the last couple of weeks. I'm pampering myself back to strength with a hot bath and a midnight supper in bed.

After 25 years on anti-depressants I'm weaning myself off in rational, slow, gradual, baby-steps. I'm talking glacial slow. :). I'm down from 100mg Zoloft to 50mg since just after Christmas. I want to know who I am without them. I was a 25 yr old mother of three with a workaholic husband when i was first diagnosed and put on Paxil and Ativan. I'm still a wife and mother of three but many things have changed in the last two decades including my tolerance for bullcrap.

Anyway, I'm just having a nice few days and thought I'd send peaceful thoughts to everyone here.

I think I see a little light...

Waitingforthelight,

Glad to read you have a couple of days where your feeling good and I hope you succeed in weaning off the AD meds. 

I am doing pretty good right now and I remember to stay in the moment.  I also have learned to not fret and stew about my disorder or  yearn for yesterday as I know that yesterday is just a memory now.  I am who I am  which is a pretty dang good person that wants to feel happy and content.

I enjoy my children and grandchildren and I understand that how I feel is my own responsibilty.  Like you, I don't value who I am but what others may think or say.

I wish you peace and happiness,

Kitt

 

Hi all,
Another level and productive day. I wonder if I should stop counting. This is day 3 :)
I'm a thinker. My best friend and worst enemy live inside my own head. Naturally I spend a lot of time thinking about how I got here - brain chemistry wise. But that is for another day. Tonight I'm wondering where my nicotine habit is going!! I started noticing that I wasn't craving cigarettes the same but like a good "habit soldier" I marched along smoking anyway. I'm pretty sure I've got a lung infection but I'm feeling good so it's not provoking panic - just a doctors appointment Monday.
Anyway, 5 days ago I started putting a post-it on my smokes and writing down 1, 2, 3, and so on, and the time whenever I had a smoke. I haven'nt deprived myself once but the length of time between cigarettes is getting longer and I have no idea why. Has anyone else had this reaction to weaning off Zoloft?
Smoking, like a lot of things in my life, is really good and really bad. I sometimes ask smokers which of these they'd pick if given a choice:
Wake up tomorrow morning as though they'd never smoked a day in their lives...or
Wake up knowing with absolute certainty that smoking would never harm them...
I could never make up my mind and neither could a lot of people I asked.
Any thoughts?

anxiety freak...sorry that you are feeling so anxious.:( Are you still worried about the vein in your forehead, or just uneasy in general? Have you tried some breathing and relaxation exercises? They can help in reducing the worry.

WFTL...how did your appointment go today? What did the doctor say, do you have an infection, or did you check out okay? I hope that your anxiety is still at a low level.:) Let us know how it went and how you are doing.

Take care guys,

S.C.