Firstly I would like to say hello and hope everybody is as well as can be expected considering the circumstances we are in.
Well where do I even begin? The first time I had to face anything of panic would have been around thirteen or more years ago (I forget exactly how long ago because I never kept tabs on it) long story short my girlfriend told me she didn't want a relationship any more then I lost my driving license and car and home and my pet all in the space of about
a month so it hit me pretty hard and I did something stupid and took ******* and BAM it didn't go according to plan and as a result I suffered with panic attacks.
Any way after going to neurologists and having various tests done it was deemed I was okay and I might or might not get better but at least the drug hadn't killed me, what it did do though was give me a new skill to write poetry so I wrote a poem and it was distributed by an American friend to some schools so that the children could understand what damage could be done to the brain, and eventually after getting used to the panic attacks and living with them I eventually beat them without medication.
That was my first encounter with a panic kind of thing which was horrific and scared me to death but as I said I lived with it and it subsided.
Moving forward to about
four to five months ago and I was doing great then one day whilst at my computer I felt slightly tired and lay down on my bed and cleared my throat and when I cleared it I noticed blood so was rushed to the hospital. I had various tests but no real confirmation of what had happened. X ray, C.T scan and bronchoscopy to check for the shadow in the C.T scan which actually came back clear and now I wait for my next C.T scan next Friday.
When I spoke with the lung specialist he told me I might have emphysema, not that I did but I might, he told me this the day before I went on holiday so my two weeks holiday was miserable. Any way I thought fine I will for get a spirometry test from my local GP who refused to give me one because I was still under the lung specialist and they didn't want to aggravate anything that might be wrong with my chest.
I told them I may have emphysema but they just looked at me confused and told me the computers said I had more than likely had pneumonia and had recovered from it. Well as you guessed it stress and anxiety had built up and I didn't take much notice and I am now on Cipralex for severe anxiety and I am struggling with it and the medication.
I'm hoping that after I have had another C.T scan and a few other oscopies that things will calm down for me again.
Well that's me and my story and I just want to recover from this as it's ruining my life.
Post Edited By Moderator (Scaredy Cat) : 8/24/2012 3:02:19 PM (GMT-6)