Good Afternoon Friends,I thought I knew all there was about anxiety as I have lived with it for years and I pretty much new what would trigger my anxiety as well as how to control my anxiety attacks when necessary.
Until August 10, 2012 I did not know what anxiety was until I heard the words "You have a very large cancerous colon tumor" Intense anxiety associated with cancer treatment is more likely to occur in patients with a history of anxiety disorders and patients who are experiencing anxiety at the time of diagnosis.
Oh yes, I have a history of anxiety and I was anxious at the time of diagnosis as I had just been through a week of Ultrasounds, CT Scans, physicals, blood work and the whole nine yards. I not only found out my CT Scan identified the colon cancer I was to be ready for a colonoscopy in 2 hours and I was scheduled for surgery in 6 short days.
I had round 1 of chemo on 9/25 and I could hardly walk out the door at home to go to the clinic my legs were shaking so badly but I made it and I can say that of all the medical procedures I have been through this caused me the worst anxiety ever - it was the fear of the unknow.
Finally tomorrow is round 2 of chemo and I am stressing but I now know how it all works and I survived round 1 so I shall survive round 2 with a lot of big breaths, staying in the moment and listening to my music play list on my iPad.
We all have within us the ability to learn how to drive the anxiety down so never believe that you are not strong enough.
I may be missing a fair amount this week as the chemo is not fun and mine runs over 48 hours so I bring home a pump which becomes part of my body for 2 days.
Gentle Hugs to All,
Kitt