Hey A.N.J.
I am really glad to see that you are on this forum. I am new here as well and after reading your post I find myself relating to you in many ways. I keep a journal daily when I am going through my episodes of anxiety and panic and at the end of them I am always writing how I feel that I am losing my mind and I don't know how much more I can take. Anxiety is probably the scariest thing I have ever gone through, but it is important to know that just like everything else, WE CAN get through it. When my son was born he was in I.C.U for the first 3 weeks of his life and everyday I would go see him and just pray that he would get better. Every day seemed to get harder and harder for the first couple weeks because noone really seemed to know what was going on with him or why he was having such horrible seizures. He actually started seizing the moment they put him on my stomach in the delivery room. After a couple weeks he got better and I was able to hold him and bathe him, and eventually after 17 days he was able to open his eyes. (they had him seriously drugged up once they took him off the respirator)..and finally after 21 days he was able to come home with me. I look back on that now and that single period of my life is what gives me hope. Hope that if he can overcome what he did, then so can we. Noone said this is going to be an easy road, but I think if we all stick together and post to eachother, we can really help one another through this. And then years down the road when this happens again, we can look back on it and realize we got through it then, we can get through it again.
Anja444