Cervical bleeding/anxiety

Here we go again, only this time, I'm scared to death while having these anxiety attacks.

I had been to my doctor in December thinking I had a uti, they checked that and did a vaginal swab while there to cover both grounds, both tests came back clear, I went home and tried to forget about it, although I would notice an uncomfortable feeling down there, and had yellowish discharge, so up until this past Monday I tried to forget about it, then I noticed that uncomfortable feeling and kept having to urinate I think?? But I didn't have the classic burning with urination, but I still went in to check with my doctor, only she wasn't there this past Monday and I saw another doc in her office, they collected a urine sample, noticed trace blood which I think now came from the vaginal blood, which I hadn't really noticed it like I do now, anyway, that sample after being cultured for 2 days came back fine, then this morning I wake up and noticed blood traces after urination, after checking I realized it was coming from the vaginal area and it wasn't menses blood it was fresh bright blood and just traces of it, so thinking I had a bacterial infection, I went to the E.R. because my doc's office is closed on the weekend, and they did a urine sample as well as some swabs to check for std's/sti's and infection, the doc said the cervix looked "frayable" and it was kinda painful when they did the swab.

Guess what, everything came back normal, even the urine sample which I took really good care this time to make sure it wasn't contaminated in any way, they are sending me to a ob/gyn this Monday, my mother had cervical cancer and it's scaring the living crap out of me.

On top of all this I have a sinus infection and have been running a 99 degree fever for about 5 days now. :(
Took a nap and felt like I had to use the restroom when I got up, of course a decent amount of blood was there this time and a great way to scare you when you first wake up again, I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to about this, I have called my mother and father both, dad is more understanding but says not to worry and my mother has never really outwardly worried about anything and gets more annoyed when I worry than anything, in her words "don't panic until you have a definite answer" "so what, I've went through it too" sooo scary to me. :(

Hi Jessiepooh,

I am new to this forum, but just wanted to say I feel for you. I too hate that weekends mean just worry/suffer through something or a trip to the er. Do you have an urgent care nearby? Anyway, I think you are right to get checked out, especially with your mother's history, but then again - sometimes things like this happen and turn out to be nothing. I know that doesn't help (lol) because that doesn't help me not worry either! But just wanted to say this seems like a good, safe place to talk about your worries... My husband gets to hear mine, but a lot of times I try to keep quiet about them because I feel like he must get tired of hearing about it- so I am glad I found this forum. Since you have an ob/gyn appointment Monday, try to be extra kind to yourself today, watch a good movie, read a good book, whatever it is you like to do that you can (I am not very "old" but I always find watching the Golden Girls comforting & they always make me laugh). Hope you get some answers and feel better tomorrow!

Thanks Littlewing and SC, it means a lot to me to have some encouraging words, still have the bleeding all night and today, then started my menses on top of that from the worry I think, hopefully they can still see me with that going on.

Have been trying to watch movies and tv shows to keep me busy, played a couple video games with my son, who is 13 in May, he doesn't understand whats going on, he was born with Down Syndrome, so he is in high spirits and has given me a good laugh (thank god for the little things).

I pray it's nothing too serious but I worry the most about the results coming back as "we found nothing" that's one of the hardest things to hear, like yesterday I was hoping they would find infection and instead "everything was clear", isn't that strange when you think about it, worrying that something would come back clear instead of a result?

Hope you both are doing well and feeling well, thanks for giving me an outlet and some encouragement, god knows I need it now!

-Jessica

Hi Jessiepooh,

You mentioned you just got your period... I wonder if the bleeding is just the start of your period? I say this because the last year or two- which is when I've started haveing panic attacks, dizziness, etc. - I've also had more irregular periods. I mean, usually the same time of the month and 28 days apart, but , sometimes I will have some spotting for a day or two, then nothing for a few days, then my actual period starts.

I've been checked for cysts and fibroids, which can cause bleeding (maybe ask your doctor to check for these) and have none. Bloodwork shows my hormone levels are normal. My gynecologist said this can just be a normal part of getting "older", like pre-perimenapause (I'm 37). He said that as you get older periods and hormone fluxes can get a little more irregular. I don't know your age but I have a daughter about the same age as your son...and everyone tells me I am too young for menapause, but the gynecologist said periods can start to get a little more irregular at this age. Anyway, just a thought.

You've made it through the weekend! ...Good luck with your appointment today!

No one I know would even pretend that you are being unreasonable in your fears about this breakthrough bleeding, my wife went through this several years before she elected to have a complete historectomy, she was 64 and over weight but came through just fine, they did it the minimumaly invasive way, no signs of C and they rebuilt several things and pulled one ovary that was embeded in the colon wall, she is fine now and no problems, sorry I forgot they did the bladder suspension at the same time. The sooner you get a determination from a Gyn. you will be more able to deal with your anxities, uncertenity seems to be as troublesome as loss of control, over I think you are doing very well and are a strong lady. My wife had the unexplained bleeding off and on for over 20 years they even put her on hormons once we did really well for several months then the bleeding started again. She went in for a well woman exam at 46 and they determined that she was post minapause. I feel you are ok just a feeling but I will continue to Pray for You. Remember a great quote, "be not afraid" Larry

Larry, I can't tell you how grateful I am for the prayers and the information about your wife, I'm glad everything came back okay for her, did she have pain when urinating? I know that's a very invasive personal question, but if you can provide any information on that it would be appreciated greatly.

Daqueen, your situation is helping me feel better about mine as well, since mine seems to be very eerily similar, but did you have pain or discomfort after urination? It feels almost like a mild burning sensation vaginally for a bit afterwards.

The doctor I am supposed to see is on vacation for 2 weeks, he looked over my records from the E.R. and didn't feel it was an emergency to have me seen right away, so he had me scheduled for April 3rd, and one of the main things his nurse asked me was "do you have insurance?" before scheduling me, I do not have any insurance yet, working on it with medical aid, I've always been self pay, I wonder if that had anything to do with how they schedule, I know it does with a dentist, anyway, I wouldn't mind the wait if I didn't notice discomfort when urinating, that makes me on high alert with health anxiety, I know both of my grandma's had troubles with bleeding but they needed their uterus's suspended, not sure if they had any discomfort in the cervix area like mine, and they both had more bleeding than I have so far.

Talk about high anxiety, I'm on the edge of my seat biting my nails!

-Jess

Hi Jessiepooh, just checking in. I hate when doctor's office ask about money/insurance before your problem/ appointment. I would ask, sweetly, "Yes, I am self-pay, Will that effect when you can schedule me?"

Even if they don't give you an honest answer, it will let them know you are aware of that and don't appreciate it. It's hard to remember when you're feeling nervous but remember insurance or self pay, you are a paying customer, paying for a service. If your symptoms change or get worse before your April 3 appointment, don't be afraid to call and say you need to be seen sooner.

In the meantime, until your appointment, distraction, what Scaredy Cat said about a "worry time"... and prayers from me, too.

JP, if I didnt know better I would swear she lived with UTI but the tests say no, sometimes her urine just plain stinks, still no test ever turns anything up.

I know one thing about urine smells, sometimes what we eat has an effect, can change just normal to a strong oder, but remember old blood that is slow finding its way out can be pretty stinky, my wife use to have this problem it seemed that she bleed some every day and didnt get a clean flush like a period.

Honestly JP she waited so long to have anything done I just knew she had C but not one sign, she put it off over 20 years. JP, allow yourself to be well!

Larry, yes you just got annother prayer!

Larry, after your comments to me and reading some you have posted for others, you are one of the sweetest, kindest souls around, it's very rare now days to find a person like you, I thank you for the inspiring and kind words to me and for the comments you have left for others, people like yourself truly help people like me, especially with your wisdom and experience.

I hope you are well, healthy, happy and your wife the same.

Sending prayers your way!

-Jess

sorry it took so long to respond... I'm not on here all the time. Yes.... as a matter of fact I do have a slight burning at the end if my urination but not like a UTI. I ve had those to. Are you sure you don't have a yeast infection? Cause my daughter is 18 and she got her first one about a month ago and she just complained about discharge and an annoying feeling. She refuses to go to a GYN so told her to.... sorry. very graphic not for the faint of heart....I told her to stick her finger in there a lil and if the finger came out with a slightly white discharge and was sticky it was a yeast infection. Well that's what she did and that's what she had.I got some monistat and that did the trick. the reason I bring that up is cause it causes smellyness and discharge and if let go for to long.. bleeding. my first one I had no idea what it was. my daughter wears thongs n tighter pants and that's always a cause... moisture. But if I don't drink enuff water it burns a lil at the end of my urination. just a lil though.I know this is a tough situation for you but you need to try to calm down cause stress it's so bad and causes other issues you don't want and trust me I understand the lilest things can trigger a panic attack.I was trippn last night for 2 hours over a coupon my mother n law took from my stack.lol sounds crazy but ppl don't understand unless they have bad anxiety. hope everything goes well n they figure it out. keep us posted please

I resopnded to your other post regarding the potassium...

Good job on getting all of this done...it is a lot to deal with, but I am sure that you are going to get the answers that you need...and that all will be just fine.

...and no, I never tire of being here with this community! :) :)

S.C.

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Larry

SC, you are a strong woman to be able to handle these things on a daily basis.

Larry, thank you for the continued support and prayers. I will allow myself to be well, once I get over this one. lol

Specialone, so true. I wish they would give me another rx for Xanax, that stuff helped more than any of the others, but they worry so much that people can be addicted, hell a bottle would last me for months, but my new doc seems to be against prescribing it to anyone, even though she knows I never had a problem with them.