Lost my job today

I lost my job today. To keep it short it was mostly my fault as I do text a lot at work etc. . However, they said they noticed that they noticed since I told them of my setback with agoraphobia, panic and anxiety that I am not focused. Perhaps, I should consider disability. I said I continued to work all January while attending an IOP and it kind of got ugly. My husband also works there and has a very good position and he is the bread winner. They were calling human resources in Monday and tensions were high. I decided for my husbands sake it would be better to leave after today. I finished the day with my head high. Now I want to throw up. He is upset with me and my mental illness. I have a headache and am afraid I will freak. Help

I'm so sorry to hear about this. It is completely unfair that you are being fired because of your anxiety--anxiety is not something that you choose! It is completely not your fault.

I would think that they should have given you some leeway given that you are working so hard (including attending an IOP) to fix the problem.

Disability is definitely something you could look into until you're more recovered.

Try to distract yourself and do relaxation exercises as much as you can right now. Hopefully your husband will be more supportive after he's cooled off a bit.

Feel better. We're all here for you during this difficult time.

Av

Gizmofab,

I am sorry about your job loss. I am glad that you were able to leave with your head held high though. Just know that you have worked very hard and tryed your very best at trying to overcome this anxiety and though this has happened, there is something else out there for you. When one door closes, another opens. Take this time to work on better managing your anxiety.

If your husband is upset, he will get over it. I'm guessing his upset will be temporary, and by helping yourself you are helping him as well. My husband is angry and not understanding when I am having bad anxiety.... but when I am managing it pretty well he is always so happy for me. I think they get upset because they have to see us struggle & there is nothing they can really do for us they feel. (my opinion)

Even if you have a little "break" tonight or tomorrow or even a week from now.. don't let that get you down. Its healthy to let emotions go. Its a big change. Accept the feelings and let them move past you. You will not lose control, you will not go crazy, you will be just fine!! If collecting disability is what you need to do until you are able to cope a little better and start a job search... do it! There is nothing wrong with that!

We are all here for you, keep posting and we will help in any way possible. Best wishes.

Gizzi,
I don't want to sound like a preacher, but maybe God has another direction for you, your still young and if you can get disability or unemployment you could re-train for something you might like more.
If they are that narrow minded about your problems they sure don't deserve you!

Larry ***

I'll be 71 April the 5th. heck your jail bait! lol

Larry ***

Hugs, gizmofab. Sorry to hear about what you went thru with your job. I had a really hard time towards the end at my job, before I started working from home, and was also told maybe i should consider disability. I also worked in the same office as my husband, so this caused some drama and awkwardness too. I wish your husband could be supportive thru this, instead of adding to the stress (sometimes my husband is, and some times he's not, so I know it stinks).

But you have not failed. I've said before, only people who have this problem know how much 'invisible' bravery it can take just to get thru a normal day.

Sometimes goind thru a change like this is scary, there's no denying that. But, I do believe you can get thru it, and maybe at the other end of it you will find yourself in a better situation than the one you were in.

Gizmofab,

I am sorry to read about the lost of your job but also proud to see you accept that it may in part have been your phone texting that contributed to part of the problem.

Do you have a therapist or a psychiatrist that you are currently seeing?  If you are thinking of disability now or for the future you need to be under a Drs. care.

I am with Larry on this point, you are just a young whipper snapper - I am 67.

Make your day the best that it can be.

Gentle Hugs,

Kitt 

Gizzy
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Larry ***