Food for thought.

I've been trying really hard for the past few days to allow myself to feel anxious. But trying to steer clear of full blown panic attacks. I've been telling myself "its ok to feel worried or scared. Its normal." And working from that.
So far its worked for the most part. Its keeping the racing over thinking at bay. I had some back pain last night just past my right shoulder blade. That set me off into a short 5 minute panic attack. Along with the normal hot flashes. I've also been dealing with over sensitivity in my left index finger (tip) and same with my right big toe. I'm on the computer a TON. I mean the majority of my day I'm reading here, or on a Knitting forum, or playing some sort of online game while watching a show on my second monitor. I sit on my feet as I'm to short to lean back in my chair and my feet touch the ground. So many many times during the day my feet will go numb or my leg etc. So I'm sure this issue has something to do with that. My finger issue I think is a nerve in my neck that gets out of wack when I sit up for to long. ( All guesses of course).

Today was a fairly good day.. UNTIL my dog found a wounded bird in the yard. At first I seen red around its head and body so I figured it was dead or dying and I left it be. And of course my anxiety shot up like a rocket. Shaky, unsettled tummy, scatter brained and just felt out of sorts. Went outside about an hour later and the little guy was breathing and trying to move. So I placed him/her in a box and waited till hubby got home. All this time ( about 4 hours) I'm just nervous. I felt so bad for leaving it outside for that hour.

I could write a book with all my health anxiety issues its just nuts. But over a bird? I mean really? I love all animals and I never want to see one hurt or dead. But boy this little issue this afternoon royally messed with me. Since then I've been on edge. Waiting for something to set me off. I've got a some sensations going on that normally would put me in a panic. But I'm trying my best to allow myself to feel worried. But not over think it. Which is soo hard to do. But I'm gonna soldier on and maybe end the night panic free.

Hope everyone had a wonderful Easter and a funny April fools day.
Hugs
Allie.

S.C.,

I have never thought of it that way. about putting the anxiety into a cup. But you are totally right.After the bird issue my cup was over flowing.
I was hoping to have a good night. But ended the night with a tension headache. Which required an Advil. Which I sooo hate taking any type of pill. So I was worried about that ontop of trying to find a comfortable position to release some of the tension. After about an hour of worry I finally fell asleep. To only wake this morning shaking, nervous and just yucky. Over thinking things and feel like I didn't get but 2 hours sleep. Right side feels weak and over sensitive. Left side is tight and sore.

Even though I feel sore and not quite 'normal'. I'm gonna try and get some things done around the house. Its time I start moving forward and not let things bother me for hours. So off to find something to clean, craft, or organize.
Have a wonderful day. I'm dumping my 'anxiety cup' ! Starting a new one
Hugs
Allie