Wow, thank you for all your replies! My computer never notified me so I just found them this morning. It always feels better to know I am not alone in this.
Larry, I worked in the aerospace arena for almost 20 years, in inside sales and customer service. I loved it and might say I was pretty good at it ;)
I met so many good people, at the end of the day I felt I had done a service to
military, etc. It was rewarding, I think I was happiest when I worked, took care of the house, the kids, my Mom, husband, etc. So here I am now, what you would calla senior citizen but not ready to sit around. Moving here was my idea, and I am so sorry I ever suggested it. I worked in orange county, CA.
I am now in a small town in a mountain valley. No industry is here. I am about 1 1/2 hour away from orange county so commuting is out of the question.
I actually have quit looking for work here now, because I know I will be leaving and have not felt well enough anyway. So, my goal now is to get better, and begin a work search after I am back among the living. ;)
I have to have a ct scan too, which scares the hell out of me. I know its a quick test, but you all know how we are? Dr. says it will relieve my mind to get it done. I could feel the anxiety rising just being at the Dr's office Monday, I wanted to bolt out of there. I thought, oh crap, I know what this is, so I guess my daughter is right about it being anxiety again. I thought it was behind me........thanks again to all of you for your replies, it does help!