Just a bit tired

Just a bit tired of deal with ppl who say things that hurt me&just don't care,it's not me being over emotional it's me having&taking all that I can take like my mother says whatever comes to her mind now,like she picks on me in her own lil evil way she don't care that Iam sick&never tries to help me as much as she do my brother who has a better job. With a wife that has a good job&they have two cars she just sends him hundreds of dollars,and will bend over backwards for him but when I need help,it's always talking down on me and making me feel small like since Iam older Iam to be doing better. When I do more for myself and don't ask for stuff&always have my hands out,I even help her out but she goes and stand ungrateful. She use to be on my side but she talks behind my back&let ppl get into her head&talk down on me,and Iam just tired of her&my fathers daughter down talking me too&judging me,she thinks since my brother on his own and got a family&husle to get what he want that hes just so good&great. They all do&I never get any credit for the good that I do,everyone looks down on me&so up to him if they only knew half the stuff he has done thats not right. But me being who Iam I don't talk down on him,and even if I tried my mother would get mad&if I had enough money I would move far away and start over a new. Iam in a bad place&when it look like it's better it sometimes get darker I don't think I desire to talk to my half sister ever again. Just tired of being hurt&talked to any kind of way&I don't post this to get anyone to feel sorry for me,I just had to get this off my chest felt like crying. But made the choice to write my tears&pain of today out¬ to re-live again, please know that Iam a open book&being able to post here is a life turn around move for me healing well is helping me change in a way I so need for the better&my greater good.

Soul
I know what you are going through. I have a very large family, 9 kids not to mention the nieces and nephews. I was ready to kill two of my brothers Sunday they are idiots and think that yelling at me is there right for some reason. I was doing something for my sister, who is great so I let it pass, but told her I will not work with them again. I have figured out where my bounderies are with my family. Unfortunatly they can help you the most and hurt you the most too. You need to figure out who to let in and who to keep at a distance. I have quit going over to my parents of late cause there is too much drama going on right now, so I stay away. I hope this helps but the family dynamic is a hard one. I live alone so I can just not go around them when I need to, and with a large family only a few of them are bothersome the rest are great.
Ed

Dawn You have another Father, and He will never put you down,
He will only lift You up!

Larry ***