so scared of being scared

I just need to vent. I have been on and off Zoloft for going on two years now after being on it for 6 years straight with no anxiety.

It has pooped out, yet since a year ago I went back on it and have tried all different doses to no avail. I am now (I'm sure) addicted to clonazepam since I have been taking that for a whole year now, DAILY!!!!

So after prayer and supplication to the Lord I am going to wean off the Zoloft, AGAIN and then see where I am at that point.

the Zoloft is doing nothing for my anxiety and I wake to this every single day...should be used to it by now but still freaks me out to no end.

I have tried other anti depressants and I have horrible side effects on all of them. so where to turn, what to do?

I am at such a loss and do not want to lose hope that I will someday regain my life again.

wondering if I should try one more antidepressant or just go taking a benzo.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Hi , I feel your pain I woke up this morning and soon as I woke up my anxiety kicked in ... I take no meds scared to its been a year and a half , tons of er visits , tons of test , doctors and everything has always been fine , medically ... Thank you Lord ...but every single day for the last year and half it's Hellman earth , chest pain , anxious , numbness , headaches , head pains , tight head pains , all types if stuff that nots normal , I think maybe if I would of took the meds long ago I would have some relief by now , but I'm scared and I heAr so many horrible story's , good and bad , and I spoke to my pastor about it and in my faith it's said that you should not take these type of meds , trust in Lord and I totally do , but it's been a long roAd and still I'm worst from when it all stArted , I don't remember what it's like to feel normal , going to the movies with my son it such a task , I have to mentally prepare myself for it and always gave the what ifs , my psychiatrist wants me to really try the Zoloft , he thinks it will help , my cousin gas been on for 5 years and he is scAred to go off it , my bf went almost two years through pure hell no meds and one day it just went away , everyday I say imma start the Zoloft but then I don't , I'm really scared , I'm even scared to take an aspirin , I don't know if its the anxiety that brought all this fear and these thoughts on I never used to be like this , everyday it's a battle , and I'm taking care of my son who was dx with leukemia and he is doing very well , but I cry because this has messes my life up , my son needs me 100% and somedays I can't get out the bed , and that's my thing why start Zoloft if it will stop working , the six years you took it where you normal , I'm sorry your going through this , I know we respond different to things , I just don't know what to do anymore , it's crazy , but like now its 12:20 and I can't get outta bed , but I'm really thinking maybe I should try the Zoloft , I tired it before for a few days just made me feel weird , I tired celexa sent me to er and I tired lexapro sent mr to er .... Wellbutrin was ok gave me crazy nightmares , I haven't been on anything long enough then a week so I guess that's why it won't work or maybe I'm looking for a quick fix .... I pray you get better , may we all get better ..