Hello and welcome!
I am sorry to read of your struggles, but so glad to have you join us here.:)
CBT is usually done with a therapist, but there are some good self-help options as well.
Here in our Resources link...you will find great information...from book recommendations, to articles, stress relief exercises and CBT therapy download worksheets...
https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=104206
These are all powerful tools to help you get started on managing your anxiety right away!
Take a look and see if anything looks helpful/interesting to you. If you would like any specific direction on where or how to start, post back and I will be happy to help you with good first steps.:)
Keep posting...suppport is key, and we understand and care!
Scaredy Cat