Hi,
I read a post of yours last night...
I was about to turn in for the night, and thought it deserved a better answer than I could provide...tired and bleary-eyed.
So in looking for it this morning, it seems that you deleted it.
If you would like to talk about it, feel free to e-mail me anytime.
If you would like it to be forgotten, then consider it to be so.
Encouraging hugs,
S.C.