I believe in being truthful here&I'm able to do it freely here because I know no one here will judge me,I've been looking at the root of my problem and what cause it and with about
I would say 95% of the time the root for most anxiety suffering people is death. Wooo that made my anxiety twitch&some most like me who don't desire to sit&conquer this because it cause panic for me,and when we're reminded how fragile life is it can hit us like a nail going into a wall.
I've saw many fear this and I don't think it was a choice to fear it,like for many even me it aint a choice it is something,that was once small,and as I said started at 14 for 13 years I was good&yes I had saw many journey on but it never worried me are made me wonder. It wasn't until my mother's mother journey on&in the same year my father,my grandfather a family friend and two aunts all close in time some five days apart. And in this same year at 14 I had a few surgeries &a cancer scare,and I was tired of going back and forth to doctors I know it just became to much for me,and how to cope I just didn't know and truly had no one to talk to no one could understand me people where doing me wrong had a uncle I adored that favored my brother more over me. 14 to 19 was just some hard years and I darn near just about
lost my mind. Think it was 19 I watched my last living grandparent journey on,my grandmother my father's mom who like my other grandma had my back&I could always call on,and talk to about
anything and they always had healing words of encouragement.
Stop eating&wouldn't get out of bed I was tired&mental wise I was drained to the fiber of my being,I don't share this for pitty, but with hope it may help someone else come closer to a breakthrough&no that no matter what giving up isn't the answer. Because life is hard that only mean the most high one gave us these trials to help others to see,that if we can make it through all the hell and still making it blood,sweat &tears then so can they. If only we could sit face to face with anxiety be fearless of the fears and lies it bring,in that very moment we will then beat all the bad that come with it&the lies also learn to never let it take from us. If we could dig deep and except the inevitable that the time to journey will be at hand for us all one day,but we need to live&love&have much fun until,kinda gets extra crazy when you not living and without thought sit around as if you waiting. And stop giving anxiety the room to breathe,and except we all have been put here for a job we must get done&just live live life. Yes it gets hard and cause us to become bitter at the situation. 95% of the time if only we could except the fact,I promise anxiety would be gone just like that it is then that we beat it we all deal differently in situations. I being. One of them because it was in the attack,that the feeling of doom set in and our mind get in fight are flight mode. And it is that rush of anxiety that fuel one mind and can cause panic like none other, we must keep working I ask for a less stressful mind&to know all there is to know about
me and myself including health wise so there will be no room are door for anxiety to slip in & not to
over think everything and to stay healthy I desire 50+ more years.
Post Edited (SoulNHealing) : 2/10/2014 6:43:22 PM (GMT-7)