This hasnt been a good week )-:

Hello everyone!

Ughh. I'm so over this week. Ready to see my therapist on Friday. I have had no energy, anxiety has been terrible, and depression has set in. This morning I woke up with a sore throat and started having an anxiety attack because I felt like I couldn't breathe or swallow, and it hurt so bad to. I turn on my phone and the first thing that popped up was this lady dying from the flu at age 29, which didn't help the anxiety from the sore throat. I've had a terrible headache due to my neck pain as well, which usually causes anxiety because of the pain. Sometimes I just really feel like my schedule rushing around in the mornings waking up exhausted feeling like im not getting enough sleep not feeling well everyday working at night then getting up for school at 6am the next day .. all really adds to my terrible anxiety. I feel as if I need to start taking my anti depressant again because I have been really sad and too anxious to where its affecting me at school, crying for no reason, feeling like im trapped and doomed for life, but my heart palps finally are slim to none and they started when I was on my anti depressants so im totally freaked out that they'll come back and I DONT want that... but the way Im feeling and this anxiety is unbearable and I want to be happy again. Im not sure about what I should do at this point... I don't want the heart palps to come back and be as intense as they have been. Wouldn't be good...but who really knows if it was really the cause of them or not..because I know it could potentially be a side effect.... as I have read on the internet.(I know,i know....) Maybe its my seasonal depression getting worse and I feel trapped inside..theres really no explanation as to why this is getting worse when I am and have been doing everything to make it better. Its like the more I try the worse it gets..Ill never understand but it makes me so angry and upset. I consider it a serious health/mental issue in my case because that's how it feels. I wish I could feel Okay for once and not have to worry about getting shaky and having to take my Xanax to calm down and feel "normal"..i wish I wish I wish!!!

I hope everyone is having a good and anxiety free day/evening!

Lacey

Well, I hope it gets better for you, Lacey. Personally, I went to sleep at 9 pm, last night, hoping to wake up anxiety free and to get enough sleep. My week has been pretty much a disaster like yours.

Went to a restaurant with my mom in law. I figured I have no kids with me atm, nothing to stress me out, and the first things I noticed when I got there? Two pictures were missing, and the spaces looked so empty. And the water running non stop in the sundae bar. My hubby thinks one of those two triggered a really bad Panic attack.

But I excused myself to go to the restroom, and my face was so bright red. Not blushing red..but like it was really bad. :/

You'd think with so many of us suffering through this, that they could figure something out. But I guess, everyone's body chemistry is different. Bah. I'll keep hoping. xD

Thanks for the replies. (-: I am just at the point that I feel I can't take it anymore. That's why I've really put thought into talking my meds again. Im at my witts end...im not going to have any nerves left if it Keeps up. It took my meds like 45 mins to kick in this morning. And it's xanax so it usually kicks in pretty fast so I was Freaking out thinking it wasn't going to work. That was at 7am before me and the kids left for school...now im sitting in school 5 hours later and its not time for another xanax but im already shaky and feels like I can't breathe again. Something has got to give I hate living this way of life with anxiety I feel like it's going to waste and I'm trying to make it the best I can but the anxiety just progresses to worse and even worse...it makes me so upset. Im now at the point where I'm just depressed always tired emotionally drained and just feel like Crap everyday. I hate it. I guess ill start with taking halves of my meds then a whole one...I just Really want baby number three and I know I can't because I need my meds..its Really putting a damper on everything... holding me back from alot.it makes me sick ugh )-:

Lacey,

Have you ever gone to a Medical Dr. that also deals in alternative treatment for anxiety/depression?

One of our local Drs. started practicing alternative treatment after studies at the U of M.  She has been helping people for 8 years now as well as continuing her PCP practice.

I saw her last Thursday at the suggestion of my Psychiatrist ( all in the same clinic) and found the session very helpful.  She used biofeedback and went through controlled breathing/deep breathing exercises.  She has a private suite at the clinic and locks the door so nobody interrupts us.  We were in a dimly lit room with a large overstuffed leather recliner and for an hour we worked on my breathing.  She gave me a light weight blanket and played soft background music.

By the time we were finished I felt much better.  She also gave me information on QIGONG Practice sessions held every Tuesday evening - (Guided Sitting Meditation with alternating Non-Aerobic exercises to aid in relaxation to create a general sense of wellbeing.

I promised myself that I would make an appointment for a massage.

I take medication but feel like I need to take control of my anxiety by expanding my tool chest so perhaps you can consider something like I have found.

What would it feel like for you to spend 45 minutes learning how to relax and decrease you anxiety?

Anxiety is tough and I have always used the excuse that "in the shape I am in - a mess" I could not possibly attend any classes but then I realized people willing to help me learn new habits cannot come to me - I must push down the anxiety and get out the door.  Isolating is not the answer to anxiety.

I wish you peace,

Kitt