Posted 2/19/2014 5:46 PM (GMT 0)
Dancer,
Thank you for your detailed replies. It gives us a much better picture of you and what you're going through!
So it sounds like you've been quite thorough with regards to medical care. I know that having a slew of tests and having the results return negative can, on one hand, feel frustrating, because we want and need answers as to why we're experiencing what we are.
But one thing we all need to remember (and I mean myself, too, because I can easily get wrapped up in a cycle),....for every test we have that comes back negative, it's part of the process of ruling things out. And in doing that, it helps us get closer to finding out just what may be the problem.
So you are doing extremely well, you're on a good path, and it's a positive sign that you're staying on top of everything as you are, instead of doing nothing at all and just worrying. Please appreciate what big steps those are!
I'm glad that you're following up with another neurologist. (Your first neurologist ordered CT and MRI -- what were they trying to rule out? What were their findings/conclusions?)
Okay, I get the picture now about 2 therapists. Again, I commend you for being so thorough. These are very pro-active steps that many of us find challenging. Once again, you're doing great things.
Please keep in mind that as far as therapy goes, as I mentioned, it's not a quick process, a quick fix, an instant cure. Do you like your therapists and do you have good rapport with each of them? Do they work with each other and consult each other with regards to your progress?
Therapy works well, but it does test our patience because we must invest the time and desire. It doesn't mean you'll be in therapy forever, or necessarily even for years,....but to be fair, 2 weeks is not enough time for your therapists to get a bead on your situation. Give them several weeks to see if you notice some help and progress.
As for medication, a lesson we've all learned along the way, is also what we dislike hearing: "Everyone is different!"
I currently take an antidepressant, but before I found the right one,--the right one for me,-- I was prescribed various medications that, sure, I did not like the side-effects of. I had some nasty experiences on a few. But my desire to get a handle on learning to cope with my anxiety outweighed the fear and anger I felt at living with all-consuming anxiety, and together with my doctor, I persevered.
Eventually, I found the right med for me, and what a difference it makes.
Please don't be scared by reading about horrible side effects. The powers that be must list every possible scenario, however remote. That doesn't mean you'll experience them. If you're unhappy enough to give medication a try, go into it understanding that like most things, it's trial and error, until you find one that works.
When they work, the meds do not "cure" you, they do not "fix" the problems, and they absolutely do not "make you happy". Only you can do that for yourself. But the proper med can help stabilize the chemical imbalances in our brains that are contributing to our emotions running amok. From there, it's up to us what we do with it.
Example: With the proper med, you may find yourself less distracted, few anxiety symptoms, and thus more receptive to therapy and able to be more productive.
Being on medication and being in therapy,....it does not mean you have to do this for life. Many people take meds for a period of time, and then with their doctor's help, titrate off of them. Learning self-help techniques in the time being will give you strength and self-control and understanding.
My previous therapist even told me straight out of the gate, this isn't a life-long deal,...she has many patients who see her for a few months, and then go out on their own, and just come back for a "tune up" or when new situations pop up they need help working through.
Before you start planning the rest of your life,...start with planning for now, your immediate future, and getting your mind and body sorted. Tomorrow is another day.
M.