Akgreen....are you on any meds? You may want to try 0.5mg tablet of Xanax when needed to get you by. They are just a band aid but definitely help you to relax. They work for me but everybody's brain chemistry is different. My brain does not produce sufficient serotonin which causes me to have anxiety and panic attacks. I just went off 100mg Zoloft which I had taken for 19 years. It seemed to have lost its effectiveness and I am in the process of switching to another SSRI and that is why I am taking the Xanax, just temporarily, helps with the withdrawl symptoms. People just don't seem to understand that when you have a brain chemistry issue, you unfortunately have to supplement with chemicals to live normally. A "normal" person could never understand what we go through, because the way we feel and the thoughts we have are so irrational. You just want to sit there with your arms folded across your chest, as you tremble and weird thoughts run rampid though your brain. Don't want to see anybody, don't want to talk to anybody...just feel that hopelessness surge through your body. "Think positive...it's all in your head...suck it up"...easy to say but impossible to do, and you know what I mean, right? I am 58 years old. I am a retired Police Lieutenant, former National Police Officer of the year...received Police Officers Blue Star, four Valor Awards, ten Commendations, etc, etc, etc...was featured on America's Most Wanted (special Behind the Badge segement) and Cold Case Files episode. I should be dead at least four times over. I have seen more death and despair than anybody should have to and even held my fathers hand a year ago as he took his last breath. All this and all the while suffering from anxiety/panic disorder due to a chemical imbalance that I inherited. There are a lot of people who don't believe in chemicals to help cope. But sometimes, at least in my case, they were my savior. Another thing. I went my whole life NEVER discussing my disorder with ANYBODY (except my family doctor), until recently that is. It's amazing how, when you talk to others, you find just how NOT alone you really are. Don't ever be ashamed to talk to others, especially ones who suffer the same illness...just doing that will make you feel better. I wish I would have long ago. As I did, with a little help, either chemically or with some therapy, you will overcome it. You would not believe just how "not alone" you really are.
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