hi guys, as stated i am new but old. just a different username. i have been on hw a long time now. i know kitt and sc well. i am on depression forum mainly. have been on bi-polar as well. just thought i would introduce myself a bit more. i am 41 live in australia, live with arthritis, hormone deficency, t2 insulin dependant diabetes, slipped disk, vision issues and surgery, insomnia, nocturia and mental health issues. i use a walking stick as well. due to the h/a and by-pass graft surgery i am still blowing a tad. this is good rhough as i am increasing my capacity. i also do a physio / heart health program, it is once a week and is graded., the exercise program. i have lifted my rating a lot in the last 2 weeks. it goes for six weeks, i am up to week 5 next wednesday. we have guest speakers as well; such as a dietician, pharmacist, etc. it is very good.
as most of you know i had a pretty big h / a. i had many problems. anaphalatic shock and puped with adrennalin, renal failure, put on dialysis and heart failure. i didn't kick the bucket but i sure gave it a rattle on three occassions. all in all i spent 31 days in hospital.
i too live with panic and anxiety, but more panic. this is to do with dying. i think i have discussed this with you already, i feel i am double posting. sorry. i have a hall-way light on and the tv in the back-ground going. i am very scared that if i sleep i will not wake up. i must admit i am doing much better as i am practicing mindfulness and deep breathing. the nocturia is a problem and has been for 2 years. i have only slept 3 nights in the last 3 years, well the last few days i am staying up a little less, not the full 6 hours of weeing. the new regime the doc and i started on is helping a little. i get little sleeps now, maybe an hour then i will do and hour or two with the nocturia, this is a huge win.
i have always been a insomniac. at university at work. etc. here in oz i am on a disability support pension. i have not worked in thirteen years. my eyes due to the diabetes have ravaged them, they are much better as i had a vitrectomy last november. i have had 2 years of laser and many intra-occular injectionns. my right eye is clean of disease but blown. this is all due to diabetic retinapathy. my teeth were all removed as well as they became cracked and excruciating. my hormone issues are for life. sort of personal so i will leave it. i am riddled with arthritis in my neck and is spreading. boo. i also have lombroscal spine inward curve at the lower part of the soine.
i am on a lot of medications, and yes i rattle when i walk. i do enjoy walking, i enjoy poetry, i am fairly good at it, if i don't say so myself. sometimes i get into abstract art. my big uotlet is music. louder the better. being on hw has been a wonderful thing for me. i have so many friends in my hw army. and i love you all. i enjoy being able to post here and there and give a little guidance or motivation and to just let people now that i care. i am glad that i have coe back to this forum. it has been awhile. i look forward to saying g'day to you all. knw that i am here for you guys. i have a lot going on but i will pst when i can.
thanks for letting me say g'day and for letting me post on the forum. take care and i will see you soon. i hope you say g'day. have a nice day my hw friends.