New to Anxiety Forum.

Hi,

I am 16 years old and my anxiety has been really bad lately and is getting to the point of paranoia. I see the man who raped me all the time and hear him- which causes me to have a full on panic attack. I get frequent nightmares so when i wake up from them- i'm really bad and have extreme anxiety- sometimes to the point where i pass out momentarily. I used to be on seroquel (up to 400mg) per night but came off it because it stopped working.
I see a psych and get therapy twice a week, and am due for another med review. (Am currently only on an anti depressant.) I guess i want to tell my doc that i am really struggling with anxiety and all my symptoms and stuff- but the truth is, she would have to have a meeting with my parents (stepmum and dad) because of my age about meds- and my parents don't believe that my anxiety is real. They think i just make it up at my convenience.

I really don't know what to do. It's getting out of control. And i keep seeing people and hearing them. It's getting out of hand and really driving me to do crazy stuff. Help please. I don't know what to do?!?!?!?!

Hi Scardey Cat,

Yes, they could. And have actually. But they just think that because they don't see me having panic attacks and i appear to be calm on the outside that i am just using anxiety as an excuse for the sake of it. I am not apart of a survivor group. My therapist is specialised in trauma. She has diagnosed me with PTSD, yes.
She thinks that my anxiety is worsening, but i have to wait to see psych about it. I'm just nervous about meds. I don't like being sedated from anti anxiety meds- which i was when put in psych hospitals.. :(

I just went down to the shops, and saw a car that looked like the one i was picked up in and raped. :(
Now i am having an attack and i cannot calm down. :( HELP

SNS,

While I am not trying to compare our situations, please let me confide in you (as I have in this family forum which I've grown to trust and feel safe in), I have had some dangerous and intimate violations occur in my life. One was with a parent.

As for the last one, I understand because if I smell the same cologne, detect the same or similar accent, even appearance, I will spontaneously vomit and have difficulty breathing. I had a client that was "all too familiar" (different person but way too similar)....and even at work at the risk of my job I addressed my Director, said I could not work with him, and left the building.

This is real, this is harsh, this can be lingering, and you do need to get assistance. You are on the right path.

Please don't worry yourself about the meds. Sometimes it takes a while to find the right one, and even then, for it to really kick in. But they all are unique and so are we. If a med doesn't work for you, you don't have to take it. How you proceed is under your control. Remember that, THIS is something you DO have control over.









M.

Hey guys, thanks for the support. Unfortunately, my anxiety kicked up last night and i got no sleep. I was just having attack after attack really. :(
I'm really tired today. I'm supposed to be babysitting tonight- but my lil girl that i'm looking after (my cousin) reminds me of how i used to be when i was raped. Before i was raped. Just looking into her eyes makes me cry. I'm scared for her. I have no logical reason to be, but i'm just scared. She reminds me of myself around the age i was when i was raped.
I'm going backwards since even last night. freaking out. Help me :'(

I managed to go around and do the babysitting last night.
Had an okay time. Wasn't triggered too much!

My anxiety seems to be okay today. I'm going shopping for new shoes in a busy mall. I hope i cope okay with being there. Hopefully.

Thanks for the support!

ArohaMai whanau!