Panic Attacks??? -- For Merrida

I am worrying beyond words and concerned beyond belief about my niece (questioning her gender and identity). It is never far from my thoughts. Over the last few days I have been breaking out in sweats, heart pounding, ears ringing and shakes. I have read so many of the resources here in the forum and it sounds like I am having panic attacks. I am diagnosed with anxiety and depression and am on meds for both. I have tried journaling, deep breathing and relaxation techniques. I cannot talk to anyone about my niece and how I am feeling about it because it is a VERY private matter and only her parents and I know she is questioning it all. So, difficult for me to get it out of my thoughts. What are some ways you all have dealt with your panic? This is happening to me both during the day and waking me up at night as well and happening when I am at work which is difficult to deal with there. I have an appointment with my pysch doctor in 2 months and cannot get in before that. I tried calling two of the therapist I have gone to in the past and they cannot get me in for quite a while either. I am at my wits end on how to deal with life in general right now and need help and support.

Post Edited (beach1) : 8/17/2014 7:50:45 PM (GMT-6)

I am really surprised with the response. I know it is your opinion and that counts. But, I am not taking it personally as you are putting. I love my niece and she and I are very close and I am very concerned about her and her state of mind and the depression she also has as well as the questions about her gender. We talk a lot about the depression we both have. I do appreciate your opinion but disagree. I am feeling very scared by the whole process. Scared of the decision she may make. I am thinking it effects all of our family. It is her life, I give you that. It is her decision but I deserve to have feelings about it all and deserve to talk about them somewhere. I cannot help how I "feel". It just happens. I worry about what she is going thru. I am sorry if you disagree with me being scared.