My turn for support

I cross posted this in the depression forum too:

I can't sleep. My anxiety physically is not high but I've felt "off" for abt a day and half- started yesterday afternoon. Can't shake the beast grr. I've had dizziness off & on all week (either allergies or meds) & had headaches all last week.

I've been on increased Lamictal (25mg to 50mg) & Pristiq (50mg to 100mg), for 2 weeks. The past month I've had more good days than bad. The past day and a half I've felt that disconnected feeling. I've stayed busy and that really helped. Deep breathing, etc. It's now bedtime and I can't be bustling around the house cleaning (distraction), with hubby sleeping.

I'm irritated once again at having these feelings. My suspicion is not the Lamictal but the Pristiq. I've been on it 3 months. They tried adding Wellbutrin after a month on it and that didn't work. Last month they added the Lamictal. I'm thinking if something had to be added so soon on going on a new AD that maybe it's the AD! I see psych on Friday. She wanted to give the Lamictal a shot before trying another new AD.

This crap has been going in since February and I'm soooooooo over it! I just feel so spacy and disconnected and to me that's worse than anxiety. It's like I feel somewhere in between anxiety and depression. The dizziness/visual dizzies are creepy. Plus I noticed in this 1-2 day period I'm really jumpy. I got a text earlier and about shot to roof by the sound! That's not like me! My short term memory is also acting spazzy. I took some short term memory tests online to make sure I hadn't lost it for good. I scored normal. lol.

Has anyone else had the lovely experience of it taking months to find the right med/combo?

I hate this weird feeling. At least anxiety/panic feel "normal" compared to this twilight zone feeling!

I'm trying so hard not to give it power but it's bedtime and I feel vulnerable bc I'm not sleepy and I know everyone else in bed already!

Man I just want myself back. 1-2 rough days and I feel like it's 29 steps back!

Thanks for listening and always supporting!!

Hugs!
Lisa

music all the way. it is my tonic. as i type i have tunes playing. med combos. they suck. am actually doing far better on stand alone medication than all of the bloody combos. food for thought. feel better soon. sending healing thoughts.

L.S.

I am so sorry that you are feeling unwell.:(

It can be so frustrating trying to figure out all of the symptoms...whether they come  from the anxiety itself...the Rx's, or some other organic issue...

The dizzyness could be from any of these things. I would seek to rule out congestion/allergies, tension headache (neck tension can be a culprit!)

Use your breathing and progressive muscle relaxation especially during this time...this will help to reduce symptoms from an anxiety angle.

Talk to your doctor about the medical/physical factors, such as allergy/sinus possibilities...your Rx, ect...

I am sending positive thoughts and prayers your way. Keep posting...glad to hear that helps! :)

Let us know how you are doing soon.

S.C.

I'm afraid that I have no real experience with what you're going through...but I do so hope you feel better soon! I know the struggles of waiting and hoping for something better to happen!
HUGS!
janet

glad to hear and help

daily habits shower shave whatever

then walks in the sun parks whatever can change moods depression

i love to go to my park or certain areas around town and sit in quit even if a bad day i cant walk

the quiet the music nature smells everything you feel it drift

tonight the football even if night sometimes night is as good or better than day tell hubby and go take you time

good luck and thanks

TooMuchAnxiety- it stinks we are both going through this since February but it's comforting to know I'm not alone! I've never struggled this long and I'm done with it dangit!

Another friend I've made through here that posts in the depression forum, Seanbigshow, has also been dealing with it since February, what in the heck?!

Are you by chance a cardinal sign? They are Aries, Capricorn, Libra & Cancer. I'm not an astrology follower per se but a lady who studies it said the cardinal signs are really facing struggles this year bc of the way the planets are aligned?! I believe it! She said the other signs are feeling it too but the cardinal signs are bearing the brunt of it. Super. lol. She said it would be this way all year but it didn't mean doomsday, just that we have to make changes or suffer. I'm trying to change but geez

I'll keep everyone updated after I see Psych on Friday.

TMA- are you make or female? Age? Have you had bloodwork done to rule out deficiencies?

Hugs to all!

Lisa

Im 43/f. My bloodwork is also normal, including thyroid. The only thing that was low was vitamin D so I've been taking 5000 vit D3 since April. I haven't noticed any difference taking it lol

Do you work TMA? Have you had anxiety/depression before? I'm a homemaker right now but am considering a PT job just to get outta the house. That Styx song "Too Much Time on My Hands" is me right now. And too much time = too much over-thinking! I need a distraction! lol.

Thanks again everyone for your support!

Lisa

No, you def don't have too much time on your hands LOL. I did social work for many years. I was laid off for a 2nd time in 2009 & looked for about 9 months for another job. After not much luck, hubby and I decided I'd stay home & be a homemaker (with no kids! LOL). It was nice for several years bc I had the freedom to go and stay with my mom when I wanted (she's 77 now. Dad passed in 2008), and visit my sisters and & other family in friends that all live in my hometown. I also had homemaker friends in the city I live in whom I hung out with. ALL of those friends, 3 of them, moved in the past year. One was my BFF and she moved 2 weeks ago. They're all 2+ hours away now

I've thought abt getting back into social work but I'm not sure my emotions are ready for that. I've considered a part time cashier job at our local Fresh Market. I was a cashier 20 yrs ago when I was in college and LOVED it lol! I love grocery stores?! haha. Hubby says do anything that makes you happy. I know I'm very blessed to have an "easy" life but as you know, we could "have it all" but if we struggle with depression & anxiety, it can be a real challenge. Depression & anxiety don't discriminate.

Where do you live? I'm in NE Indiana.

I just love the support here & thank you all so much.

Hugs,

Lisa

Oh wow. How'd you end up in MO from NY? I've never lived out of state. I've never lived more than 2 hours from my hometown. I'm now 40 minutes from hometown. I have a lot of family & friends in my hometown so being close is important to me. I'm the baby of 5 kids and still need my mommy lol! Mom is 77 but still very active.

This morning my neighbor & I and her 1 1/2 yr old went to a nature preserve by our home. I've lived here 10 yrs and have seen the signs for it but never went. It was stunning. We hiked, saw monarch butterfly habitats, etc. It's literally less than 10 mins away. I regret not going sooner! The Mosquitos were awful but I took repellant thank God.

How's everyone today? I'm doing ok. Happy for our adventure. Still feel a but off. Not anxious, just a disconnect feeling but subtle. It's such a stupid feeling. But, proud of myself for going out of my comfort zone to a new place

lesweet,

Very good job on getting out of your comfort zone! That's my hardest task but I've been trying as much as possible since I lost my job. I'm glad you're doing better than the other night. Every time we overcome a challenge we grow a little stronger. Thank you for sharing your stories and I hope you continue to get better and feel like yourself again soon!!!!
Good luck