Posted 10/5/2014 6:15 PM (GMT 0)
Ahhh..the pending doom Cornell...isn't that the worst!!!! I used to get the chest pain alot when I was younger as well as the weakness in left leg and arm, assuring me that it WAS a major heart attack in the works! Now I don't have that as much (so far this episode anyway) but pretty much everything else you all describe. And, interestingly, I have no problem with going to sleep, but usually have vivid, vivid, dreams which, if bad enough, set the tone for the next anxiety filled day. I'd love to have just one night when I didn't have dreams; however, on the few occasions when I wake thinking I didn't dream, I oftentimes feel especially anxious, probably because the dream was there but I can't remember it. Anyway, right now I've been experiencing the shakiness and dry mouth all day....it never ceases to amaze me how many different symptoms we can have o a given day....individually and sometimes all at the same time. That pending doom is the very worse for me though. And you know there's no reason for it but that doesn't seem to matter. Sometimes I try to figure out how I would generalize how anxiety affects a person to someone who's never experienced it. Aside from all the physical symptoms we get, it just feels like there's a pale over my brain and I want so badly to clear it out of there. I'm never free of thinking about my anxiety, find it difficult to concentrate on other things and just feel like a machine that went 'TILT.' On the few occasions when anxiety passes and I feel "clear headed", it's such a wonderful relief...but it never lasts long enough.