feeling...different, but better, sort of....

Hey all. Took some time to myself to get some exercise in. Happy to say I been walking on average 4 miles a day, though rain kept me indoors a day or two here and there.

My anxiety is a lot lower, unfortunately I still have panic attacks from time to time. Almost always my heart pounds harder and it sets it off. But, im dealing with it well id say.

One thing I did though that isnt helping, and actually causing me some anxiety over. Im sure most know what facebook is. Last weeknI decided to delete my account. Friends have been less than happy. And when I say friends I dont mean the acquaintances who really dont give a rats behind about you. Real friends. I felt, for me, that social networking wasnt really all that social. People dont visit, or call, when its easier to pop online and chat and post pictures. Problem is, I need more than that. I need a social life, with real people that actually talk...lol.

But a couple true friends arent happy about me deleting it, as facebook is their main way of communicating. Hence, ive had a couppe VERY boring few days. I really miss the interaction, but no longer wish to sit online for hours chatting,nor waiting for someone to chat.

Its frustrating in a way, feeling like I lost my friends, which the true ones will be there, we just wont talk as much now. But I was so used to "hearing" from these same folks everyday. Unlike most, I had family, and a very small, under 20 , circle of friends and kept them close. I guess they feel abandoned, and now im bored...lol. Kinda stinks. Hoping we all get used to it. If not I guess ill be looking for a new circle in person, instead of online.

Hope everyones doing well. God bless ya's!

T.,

Wow!! Great job on the exercise!! You are rockin it out at 4 miles a day..well done!

Keep up the good work...and keep us posted on your progress. So glad that you are feeling better! :)

S.C.

I agree. I don't even like talking on the phone. Let's GET TOGETHER, and hang out in person! I am always saying that.

It's so much better, more enjoyable, more valuable, and healthier.

(...Ironic, since here we are.... CHATTING ONLINE, lol ;D )

Trader!! So good to hear from you, as I think about how your doing often.

I think it took a lot of guts to delete you facebook page. I don't delete mine, but like Stephanie, I cut waaay back on checking it. And I also cut my "friends" list to my family members and real friends. I feel TONS better. I Found, with facebook, I was comparing my life to others and that was really unhealthy. I thought everyone was always having a better time than me, making me totally insecure. I always had to remind myself that facebook is a never ending stream of people's highlight reels. Nobody's life is as perfect as their Facebook "life" perceives it to be.

There is nothing better then sitting down with a good friend and conversing. Laughing with a friend! Getting your point across without writing a page long summary!!

I'm glad you are doing well Trader:)

Here's my odd-ball and uncommon $0.02.

I've never had a FB account and never will. Nor any other type of social media. Nope.

From what I've learned about them, they just tend to cause more anxiety, it's just another place one feels compelled to check on the gossip and exchanges that are made freely without taking the effort to meet the person in real life.

I prefer real live friends and real situations, not a cyber life. I know I'm in the minority, and I am very much at peace with that! Wouldn't have it any other way! :)





M.