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Posted 10/14/2014 12:06 PM (GMT 0)
hello ive just signed up for this forum because i'm absolute nervous and i don't really know what to do anymore. im sorry if i dont make much sense, my mind is really everywhere right now and it's hard to control or figure out how to say things right now.

a little about me: i am 21 going to be 22 this November and have been diagnosed with panic disorder recently about two weeks ago. i have been suffering from anxiety since i was around eighteen to nineteen and it has been an on and off switch through the years. most recently i have been feeling terrified and unstable. i wake up anxious, feel like i'm going to vomit and am constantly taking my temperature to make sure i don't have a fever. i can't tell what has been causing me to be so frightened but i'm starting to think my obsession with the ebola news is really slapping me in the face. i live in austin, texas if you can understand how frightened i am about that and how sort of delusional and disoriented it's been making me.

i don't feel like myself at all. to be honest, i'm scared of losing myself. i feel like i'm going crazy or that i'm going to need to go to the mental hospital for the rest of my life because i'm some loony. i really don't want that to happen.

my boyfriend has been telling me to calm down and that it's okay. i know he's trying his hardest and i feel awful for never being able to just communicate with him or be normal as i used to whenever he's around. my friends are probably pretty sick of hearing me go off about being scared as well. everyone is probably tired of some guy freaking out at random intervals and pretty over it, actually.

i am on medication and have been on medication for two weeks now. recently my doctor and i have gone through so many medications because for some reason a lot of them don't really work well with me. within the past few days i've been feeling sort of depressed or that there is no escape/hope and both i and humanity am doomed. i really don't like that feeling at all, haha. i'm sorry that's probably so pathetic sounding.

i don't know how to make this stop. im exhausted and i think stress is starting to slash me down to the point where it might be actually making me physically sick. i'm going to my doctor again today for a follow up and actually in a few hours but i'm not sure if ill feel any better anymore.

im sorry i dont know what i want my coming here. help? reassurance? someone who knows what it feels like to feel as if you're going insane and will never be happy again. im not sure. thank you in advance however for reading this and i apologize if i make anyone nervous or uncomfortable but i just cant do this anymore.
Posted 10/14/2014 12:39 PM (GMT 0)
I definitely felt "crazy" when my anxiety was at its worst, and I was really scared that I would never be anything resembling normal again.... I was scared that I would not be able to function normally ever again, and that I might end up house-bound.

I had panic attacks where I truly believed I couldn't breathe, I was in the ER literally screaming for a doctor, my body would be shaking, my face red.... I couldn't drive my car, couldn't get in an elevator, couldn't be alone, etc....

Long story short, I did overcome my anxiety (not 100%; that tendency is still in me, but I overcame it like about 80-85% - no more panic attacks, at all.) Now I don't even bring Xanax with me even on an international flight! I know I don't need it. (I used to not leave my house without it, "just in case.")

I'm just trying to tell you that it is definitely very possible, and potentially not even really all that difficult, to overcome your anxiety. I did it with natural means, with holistic medicine, bec I have a very strong aversion to drugs. (The Xanax, I took maybe a total of maybe 5 or 6 times, in the beginning, in emergencies before I knew what to do.)

I know it's sooooooo scary when you first realize you have this disorder.... You want to get out of it, but don't know how. (If u want to know how I did it, u can click on my profile, & read my previous posts...)

To give u the full picture, even now tho, I felt myself feeling uncomfortable reading about Ebola. Even tho I am not scared, bec I know the chances of getting it are infinitesimal, I still just felt a slight feeling of anxiety reading about the gruesome death that poor guy went thru. So, I will no longer be reading about Ebola....! You have to be very conscious of your own thoughts, and the impressions you allow to come into yourself. I am not a big news person, for this reason. I may be less well-informed than I should be, but my mental well-being is far more important to me...!

Have faith and hope, and unwavering commitment to get the best treatment for yourself, and you will come out the other side of this nightmare...!

I hope u feel better soon. :)
Posted 10/14/2014 2:30 PM (GMT 0)
Hey. Welcome to the board. :) Sorry you're feeling so nervous/scared right now. Sounds like you've taken a good first step in seeing a doctor and trying to get some meds figured out. That may help you a TON. I really hope so!

You already recognized this above, but maybe try and limit your exposure to the ebola news? Especially if it is freaking you out so much. I'm sure if anything really super major happens, which I don't think that it will, but if by the slim chance that it does, I'm sure someone will mention it to you in daily conversation.

Also, this board is a great place to discuss your worries, because a lot of members have been there, done that and can speak some truth into your situation. And anxiety/panic can be exhausting, and have definitely caused me a great deal of physical unwellness along the way. Try to give yourself some time each day for a relaxing activity. Bubble bath, nature walk, listen to music, whatever your fancy.

I know this will get better for you as time goes by. And finally, our worship pastor just moved to a new church down there in Austin. Maybe you could check it out? Church has definitely been a help for me in this anxiety life. I think the church is New Life Church? Anyway, here's the link to the worship pastor. :) Best wishes.

/www.facebook.com/StephenMillerMusic
Posted 10/14/2014 3:32 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Neru and welcome!

I am sorry that you are currently going through a rough time in terms of panic and anxiety.

I know how exhausting it can be! I suffered terrible daily attacks that left me absolutely mentally and physically wrung out.

Have you tried or considered therapy as a treament option? I ask, because I was able to overcome my attacks and learn to manage my anxiety through CBT. Others here can also attest to therapy and techniques such as mindfullness and CBT/DBT ect....

I hope that you and your doctor can discuss this and other options, so that you can treat your issues from a wide range of possible options.

Here are some links that I thought may be helpful for you as well. They are self help exercises, that if practice daily, reduce overall anxiety levels and symptoms. Try to do these a couple times a day, everyday and see how you feel.

Self Help sites with breathing/relaxation exercises instructions

Panic attack relief exercises:

 

http://www.healthcentral.com/anxiety/c/73076/34334/breathing-lessons/

http://www.healthyplace.com/

http://www.stress-relief-exercises.com/

http://www.ehow.com/video_4405003_breathing-exercises-panic-attacks.html

http://www.psybersquare.com/anxiety/panic_relax_I



Keep posting with us as well if you find it helpful. We understand, care...and support is key!

Scaredy Cat

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