HealingWell
Search Close Search
☰

Existence

Support Forums
>
Anxiety & Panic Disorders
✚ New Topic ✚ Reply
❬ ❬ Previous Thread |Next Thread ❭ ❭
Posted 11/27/2014 4:16 AM (GMT 0)
I'm sure I'm not the only one that struggles with this, but I really need some reassurance that I won't be feeling like this forever. I don't know if this is a symptom of depersonalization or simply an offshoot of anxiety, but it's very difficult to describe. I'm always questioning my own existence, how am I a conscious, aware being? Why can't I be okay just being me, alive and well and enjoy life without wondering how I got here? It's a very deep disturbance, something that I can't stop obsessing over. I've been through dp and although I had these same questions, it was different. It doesn't give me anxiety in general, unless I think about it more deeply. I'm really just hoping that this will pass with recovery, but I can't help but wonder if I'll ever look at life the same again.
Posted 11/27/2014 4:18 AM (GMT 0)
Marj,

I'm right there with you. I don't always want to be living, but I keep going because it's God's will. I'm no Bible thumper, but that's just my interesting solution. It adds nothing to my happiness or self-worth. I am just waiting until my name is called.

John
Posted 11/27/2014 8:47 AM (GMT 0)
I get this same thing! It's so weird I just recently joined this site and there's all these things I used to think I was the only one.. Anyways I guess I've never obsessed over it though. It's probably not something to worry about if it's not giving you anxiety, but you should talk to someone you trust about it. I always tell my mom everything and it makes me feel a lot better.
Posted 11/27/2014 1:24 PM (GMT 0)
Marj- I didn't/don't get anxiety with DP/DR either. Existential crisis is very common, especially at your age (early 20's), but really at any age. It's quite a common reaction to struggles, yours being anxiety &/or depression.

It WILL pass. It's not going to go away overnight so keep moving forward. I believe it is the old saying "time heals all wounds." That's a cliche saying but it's true bc I have experienced it many times. I've been through depression, anxiety, death of my father, victim of a robbery, bad breakups, being fired from a job once, etc. All horrible things & every single time, time has healed the wounds.

Happy Thanksgiving Marj!

Lisa

Ps: as a chef, is there anything dish that you're especially good a preparing & if so, what is it? :-)
Posted 11/27/2014 4:43 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you very much for the reassurance, it really means so much to me. Happy Thanksgiving!
Posted 11/27/2014 6:35 PM (GMT 0)
MM.,

I do think this is common for all of us at certain points...it is part of the human condition afterall.

Those of us with anxiety tend to be highly intelligent, questioning type of people...so there is a naturally increased level of this for us.

Seeking to find spiritual meaning can help to alleviate some of the vastness of these questions...I don't know what this looks like for you.  For me, it is practicing my faith, and helping others. :)

Keep working on your recovery goals...and never lose that sense of asking the deeper queries of life!

S.C.
✚ New Topic ✚ Reply