Sorry to hear you are struggling with anxiety, this has been my biggest issue is getting past my anxiety, and I am not quite sure how someone can be SO anxious all the time, it makes no sense.
2014 seems like a blur to me at the moment, I am thankful I was here to see it, but don't think I will miss any of this year.
I've written before I am not superstitious, but I don't recall having my black-eyed peas on the first(a tradition here in the south, it maybe a tradition elsewhere) I may be sure to make a huge pot this year and eat so many that my stomach may need pumped
, well that wouldn't be starting the year off good, so maybe just a bowl