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I'm not new to the forums however I forgot my last username /password and I haven't been on in forever lately I've been having bad anxiety I've been feeling like something is just wrong strong back pain chest pain numbness stomach problems heavy breathing I know it's my anxiety but I'm scared I keep thinking the worst I'm 24 and drs said my heart is fine but it just seems to get worse I was on paxil 20 mg but I lost my insurance and been off the pills for about two months. Im at my breaking point I've fallen asleep and felt like I was watching myself and I couldn't move or yell for help idk if it was a dream or anxiety ive read books tried meditating breathing techniques and nothing has worked idk if all this is normal or if it's something else I'm getting yo the point where I'm afraid to be alone or even sleep idk what to do someone please help

Hi Jessi, *hugs* you are not alone ok? It seems like there is so much going on for you and this is what is causing all this stress and anxiety, and that is normal. Being so anxious and stressed wears your body down, mentally and physically making you ill. The mind is a very powerful thing but seems to be working at a disadvantage for you. You need to allow yourself to think that you are well and your heart and chest are healthy. People can tell you that, and it is the first step, but the second step if to prove it to yourself or allow yourself to believe that there is nothing wrong with you and focus on the anxiety you are facing. I am not the most knowledgeable about this but please know that you are not alone. There are people here and i'm sure in your life that love and care for you
Sincerely Roses

You do not have to be strong. You are entitled to let yourself be vulnerable if even for a short time. vulnerable as to let others in to help, not to give in to something easier than life. Maybe let your armor crack. Sometimes the best way to deal with something is to let the people around you in. It is a very hard thing to do, but allow only those you truly trust and they will do all that they can to help you. This way you will have encouragement in your daily life too. You can be strong, but you don't have to shoulder the weight of the world alone

I do that all the time with my fears :J Thinking that there are actual Zombies and they will come to get me tonight. Fears that seem so silly but in my head seem so real. Personally it helps to have a friend de-rationalize my fear for me in a way that makes sense to me that isn't condescending, then I confirm it back to them. Maybe try and de-rationalize it yourself or make a mental chart of your possibilities. What are you physically able to do (even if it's something that you do mentally). Then think which of your options would lead to you being the healthiest in life now or in the future and try and work towards it. This way is is not a failure if it doesn't work, just a choice. Also, is there a small hobby you could do before bed to tire you out so you can go to sleep? For me i'll read or work until I can't stay awake. I hope something helps or you even find your own way!

Ya hi bee I used to bUT I lost my insurance aND I'm just now getting medi cal and everything I used to do therapy and was on medication bUT since I lost it in may ibe ran out of my medication and have been trying to do it with out idk if being off of them has made it worse :(

Do you know of any specifics to help I've tried meditating breathing exercises and I end up falling myself out more abs sleep paralysis thank you at least now I know it's not harmful my boyfriend said I looked like I was sleeping fine but then I flung my hand against the wall I told him when I did that I was finally able to move

I meant freaking not falling lol dumb phone and when meditating I just sit there with my eyes closed listening to soft music and noises aND breathing I just kind of make sure its controlled and breathe in threw my nose and out my mouth

Thank you I'll definitely look back into these resources on here its just so good knowing that even though it's getting worse for me people have the same symptoms