Posted 1/5/2015 5:13 AM (GMT 0)
Well today was a set back im still under a pack a day but i smoked more then i wanted to today :(, now im setting here with my anxiety kickin my bum, i believe i smoked around 13 cigs today. where i have been down to between 5 and 8 a day, my SpO2 has come up from 95% to 97% since i started slowing down with less smokes and my pulse is now staying in between 70 and 90 which is good i believe. i know there will be days that you fall back its always for one step forward there are 3 back. i am hoping tomorrow will be better then today. i am going to see how long i can go with out a smoke at all and if i go all day with out one im wont be picking another back up. I am going to beat this. I just hate the systems that come with quitting:( my anxiety is not fun and with the extra it just really suck, my oldest son (he is 11) dont want to go to sleep so he can stay up with his momma and be here for her for this bad night. i have already broke down and cried, my head feels like a big bolder is sitting on top of it, and its making my eyes hurt lol, i know i will be better tomorrow it will just take time