leukemia fears are back stronger than ever

Hi guys this JGsoccer, my phone was stolen and i had the remember password setting on so I had to make a new account, I hope I'm not breaking any rules of the moderators? Well to summarize my past issues in late may of 2014 I began to worry about symptoms I had been having and linked them to leukemia the AML type the main symptom being this stint and cramp like feeling in my upper left abdomen and back and side which I'm almost certain is my spleen. I had the CBC done in July and everything came back clear to my knowledge other than a slightly low wbc of 3.3 which I understand is normal for someone of carribean or black ethnicity. Well now 7-8 months later the fear is back even after having several docs palpate the area and Tell me they feel nothing there and one said she could feel it but its not enlarged Im just a skinny kid, when I lean back there's a slight protrusion in the middle left of my tummy, other than that I feel somewhat fine and I'm still playing soccer twice a week, to my understanding about acute leukemias by now id be pretty bad off if I had it?? Thanks guys

Hi RH and welcome back!

Sorry to hear about your phone.:( But no worries about creating a new account...people do it all the time for various reasons. Thank you for letting us know your who you previously were...that is really helpful!! :)

I do agree in trusting your doctors and tests. You would undoubtably know if you were suffering an acute illness at this point...but anxiety and the worries do tend to come and go.

Using your coping skills during this time is a step in the right direction since your anxiety seems to be ramping up currently.

Do you remember anything from the Resources being helpful in the past? We have self-help for health anxiety issues there. Let me know if you'd like me to copy the links for you.:)

Post anytime you need encouragement...we are here for you!

S.C.

I thought I had leukemia for years....never did and I too know you would have symptoms in your blood work if that were the case. But it never seems to reassure us when we have health anxiety..we always think the doctors missed something. So keep repeating positive thoughts to yourself and eventually you will believe them. I'm sure you are fine but I can relate to your fears...they are so similar to what so many of us suffer with.

Thanks andwes and yeah even after the results or the CBC I was still shaving doubts and Scaredy Cat thanks so much for ur warm and caring energy and the links thanks so much guys. I will get through this, I honestly don't think k would be living this long with an acute form of myeloid leukemia but then on Google there's all these subtypes..oh well. U guys are awesome thanks!

Those links are great! Does anyone know anything about Acute leukemias and can ease my mind a bit ? No way I could be this well..or even some what well after 7 months?