Having a minor freak out!

My logical side is not prevailing right now! My Father-in-law is apparently in the ER. I guess he either fainted or had a seizure and his BP is unusually low. We are supposed to be going to see them tomorrow and as usual, I'm taking someone else's ailment and imagining myself with it. So I'm sitting here picturing this whole scene happening to me on the plane tomorrow.

Does anyone else do this? Also, does anyone else seem to think in pictures the way that I do? Once I get an idea in my head, it immediately becomes like a movie and I can see the whole negative idea playing out in my mind.

Someone needs to reach through their phone or computer and just shake some sense into me! I'm so anxious now, even though this is obviously not going to happen to me; I'm terrified!

Park,

I'm sorry to hear about your troubles today :(

I usually don't think in pictures, but I most definitely put together scenarios in my head of what could possibly go wrong. I'd shake some sense if I could! If only everyone else shakes me right back.

Hope your Father in law is well!

Thanks Zack. I'm anxious to hear about what's going on. Last we were told, he wants to go home, but everytime they lie him down, his BP drops. I'd stay in the hospital if it were me, but hospitals feel like a safe place for me and I know not everyone feels that way.

Hi Park. I have struggled off and on for 12 years with anxiety! I am guilty of doing this exact same thing!! I am sorry for your FIL. Hope all is ok.

Park...I always do the same thing!!! As soon as I hear about something happening to someone, I automatically think of it happening to me! We're all way too creative and that's our problem!(: wishing you and your father in law the best!!

I do the same thing...with pictures in my mind. Sending prayers to you and your family.

Yes. That's why I can't go into hospitals. I see myself in every room. I visualize myself hooked up to the machines.
Remember don't believe everything you think ;)

Hi Everyone,

Trying to keep all images just out of my head today! If I try and stay in the moment without letting my mind wander, maybe I'll handle this flight better.

My FIL is totally fine. He overdid it during the day and neglected to hydrate and apparently he just fainted. All his bloodwork and tests came back clear so they sent him home last night.

Thanks for the support. As always. :)

I know! It's a bummer that our minds are taking something that should be a tool and turning it into something scary!

We do leave today. I think I'll just be excited once we land.

:)

We made it on a very peaceful flight and I was calm the entire time. Oddly enough I'm at my mom's house and feel extra anxious. I cannot win. Grrrrr.

Glad you made it safe! I hope your anxiety calms down as you get used to your new surroundings. I'm glad the flight went well. Have a great time!!

Thanks guys. You know what's no fun? Trying to share a bed with a spouse and a toddler who is overtired but thinks it's time to play. He's still in a crib at home so this bed business is not working out. I'm planning for an all nighter.

S.C., that's too funny. My son basically kicked me in the face, stomach, you name it. He's had to sleep with us at home a few times, but luckily we have a kind sized bed. Last night and tonight the three of us are in a full sized and it makes quite the difference.

Plus we all had to go to bed at the same time because our son wouldn't sleep without us, so we went to bed at 9, (8 chicago time). I definitely had to use some extra Xanax to knock myself out. On top of that I was truly extra anxious at bedtime. My stepdad made salmon and while I love sushi, if I eat cooked fish, I prefer it on the dry side to be certain it was cooked and this was questionable so the second my stomach made a little bubble, I was sure I was in trouble and I focused on it for hours.

Thankfully tomorrow night we switch to a hotel with a nice big bed and a crib for the little guy. I'm sure I'll calm down then!