Posted 2/10/2015 11:03 PM (GMT 0)
So yesterday went through urgent care been still having problems with my heart irregular heart beat, heart was beating 152 beats for a minute I'm seriously ready to check myself into hospital for anxiety really don't want to because I don't want the embarassment but on top of everything lying ex who kept using me no job. Fine one minute want to cry the next, just not healthy and it scares me went to dentist today to basically find out I've a bacteria inffection and it is seeping through my blood stream so that could explain too. Why my heart on top of anxiety is working overtime, oh not to mention I'm anemic again I've been telling doctors for months something is just not right and the all write me off as anxiety and it's all in my head and it takes a urgent care doctor to listen to me for me to get answers. Im not eating and losing weight rapidly, just really a wreck want to cry now because doctor calls and tells me they got my thyroid levels back but I've to wait until apointment to discuss them why would they do that knowing I've anxiety I now have to take a ativan not to worry I can't afford the stress.Heart started racing again today I must've sat with door open over a hour, fearing being alone like really need alot of encouragement because I just want health and strength mad these doctors didn't listen to me months ago& a big reason why Iam in a deep depression fighting to regain control.