a lot.

massive day of anxiety. about everything. oh well. had to take some val and go to bed. still that was bad. but after 2 hours i did fall asleep. i don't feel well. malaise, depression and so forth. i spoke with my sis, she is going through similar.see my shrink friday. sorry for the burden. just need some support.

So sorry to hear about your rough day Turtle. Im sending good vibes your way, and am sure you will feel better soon, just hang in there.

HT I am sorry to hear that. It seems you really have sooo much in your plate lately and I am truly hoping that you feel better so soon <3

You know we are here for each other and feel free to share your feelings anytime you want.

*gives a cup of calming chamomile tea*

H.T.,

Lots of healing, claming, restorative thoughts going out to you my friend.

I am sorry that you've hit a rough spot.

It is for a time...not permanent, but hard to ride it out just the same!!

So know that we feel for you, and are here with understanding and support.

Check in when you can...rest, decompress and recover.

S.C.

Sometimes it's good to take a val and go to bed and sleep off the funk. Hope you're feeling better.
Had to take a xannax myself b4 bed last night I was so wound up. Had read an article that said in bed with a comfortable pillow under your head, put another under your knees. Then place one hand on your chest, one one your lower abs and take a deep breath filling lungs from bottom to top think P. E. A. C .E (to keep the pace) and then let it out imagining the lungs are expelling top to bottom think P.E.A.C.E
So it worked or the xannax worked.....

Wishing you all the best

thank you my dear friends. i see my shrink friday. i definitely need this. i am very complex at the moment. i suppose you get that with a gammet of mental health conditions. but then i am just a different species of turtle. usually over expressive, but brutely honest. as the plate gets slowly scrapped i hope i will recover a little. i don't like this word, but i hate the just existing thing. i am pushing as hard as i can, but i just need for my body and mind to heal and let me prosper. i feel so unproductive in society. i have not worked in 12 years, i am struggling just to get back over to see my fiance again this year. doing so is very difficult on a disability pension. then the forward anxiety of when we will actually be together permanently.

i am being present, decompressing as much as possible, using my coping skills as much as possible whilst trying to be productive and get well. sorry i am being complex again, but that is me. the outside is showing a picture of coping, but the inside is the most fragile i have been in a long time. it's a different fragility to anything risk adverse. just too much going on, i am soldering on, forever kicking and screaming. i will go. i hope the shrink has that reconditioned brain and mind ready for pick up!! lol. my love 2 u all. a complex turtle.

thx larry and weary. either i missed ya, i don't think but i may have been doing this post when ya were doing yours. thank you very much my friends.

cheers. will report in tomorrow.

H.T.,

If you touch the lives around you with your wisdom and postivity the way that you do around here....

...I don't see how you could possibly be a candidate for non-productivty!!!!

Nope...that is just not possible.;)

There is more to being active in society than simply being in the workplace...in fact, some of the best people I know do not hold down 9-5's...they are in the business of just being GREAT and helping others...


Wishing you a good appointment tomorrow...and a pull out of the current low spot...

..it will happen, be strong and patient...and know we've got your back...er, shell!! :)

Hang in there bro...we are cheering you on!

S.C.