Posted 2/28/2015 5:08 PM (GMT 0)
hi everyone , pray all is well with everyone and each day is a better one .....
Well , the battle goes on ... my anxiety is not where is once was , Thank God ! but those of you that know how bad off I once was , unable to function , leave the house etc ......
I have been doing pretty ok i must say its been a long hard 2 and a half years , my son is doing well and his cancer treatment is well , he is still in remission and being a teenager ...
while i can control my anxiety better then i was able to before , i still struggle with the everyday constant chest pain , so days are better then others , after having every heart test done including the cardiac cath and everything was fine , my doc says that iam ok and i dont need more testing ..i have learned to stop going to the ER so much and basically fight the pain , at times its hard so I pop half of my ativan especially while im at work ,,,
Now my chest pain is weird cause its like its cracks , crackiling sounds as if you crack your knunkles , best way i can explain , i can be moving and have to stand still cause i feel a knot coming on and then oce its pops i go back to normal , its not just my chest area , at times its the other side of my chest or my back , and when i first went through this i lost tons of weight , and now i gained back about 20 pounds and my back hurts and be in pain ,
my cardiac doc says he will give me another hoilter and stress test just to but my mind at rest , and even with my headaches and my mouth drool my neuro doc is giving me yet another mri with and without contrast had one in 2013 , but its all for peace of mind they say , my primary doc just once again gave me all tops of blood work even checked my hormones , everything fine .... now its been since aug 2012 of all this and a long long battle of specialist , doc , test , etc , this started right before my 34th bday in sept .......
again im better then i was but still struggle , just seems like its always something new , like the chest cramps , popping and crackling , makes me worry , but i learn to control my thoughts , the head tightsness and werid head jolts get to me , and my mouth stays with spit and a little drool ....
i just pray that each day it goes more and more away , does anyone go through any of this ...