Hi Mommy and welcome.
I am so sorry to hear of your current struggles. My heart aches for yours and what you have been going through.
Do you have a psychiatrist that you work with? If not, I encourage you to look into this a.s.a.p. It sounds as if you need more treatment and level of expertise than a GP can provide for you.
For example, have you ever been recommended for an in-patient treatment plan? This could provide the temporary intensive care that you need to get a jump on your recovery.
Most people shy away from this option due to the fact that they don't want to dedicate the time and be away from home...but in your situation, you've only to gain from something like this in the long term!
Also, have you considered SKYPE as a therapy option for yourself? Many mental health professionals are offering this type of treatment that can be facilitated at home.
Finally, we have some self-help that could be of benefit to you. Here is the link. Take a look and see what looks helpful for you.
https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=104206
...but above all, if you've not already, please look into finding a P-doc for yourself so you can make steps for a new plan of treatment. There is help and hope!
Post with us anytime!
Scaredy Cat