I need some help understanding what is happening to me

So first of all, i do know i have a lot of phobias: insects, spiders, snakes, heights ( and i feel like my legs and feet hurt like hell and are heavy if i`m near a window more than 4 story high or somewhere high like platforms, stairs etc ), that someone might push me when waiting to cross the street, dogs and also i am sometimes afraid of dark.

When i was a child i was afraid of being home alone ( used to hide under the bed and wait for my parents to come home or i was using a room that i carefully locked and sometimes blocked the door with a sofa ) but as time went by and i becamed a teenager and a adult i got rid of it and got stronger in mind and body.

Before my entrance exam for college i had a one week marathon of study from 11 AM to 3 PM stopping just to eat, drink and go to bathroom and i remember on the last day of my study i felt odd, something was not right and i could feel a irational fear ( fear you feel but can`t explain, has no logical reason and you don`t know what could be causing it ). Stopped, managed in the end to sleep in my bed with a blanked in my hands and the next day it was over.

Now i`m 24, i have my own apartment, i do have again to study and i`m home alone ( except my cat and my girlfriend is visiting her parents at the moment, will be back in a few days ) and i feel the same irrational fear i felt that time, even though i can`t think of something that scared me or explain the way i feel.

P.S. i do not have problems breathing, my hearth beat is normal i think, i do not shake, tremble, i do not have any feeling of chocking, nor do i have chest pains like i read a panic attack should have.

I do however have a " a sense of things being unreal or feeling detached from oneself ", the light is dim so i feel everything around me in a grey colour, a bit sad and i lack the feeling of being alive and living. ( but i am because i write this )

Hi Kanji and welcome!

Not everyone presents with the exact symptoms like you read about regarding a panic attack...

...and many people simply have anxiety symptoms that can differ from a full blown attack...but are none the less stress related and very uncomfortable.

So you will likely want to try some stress relieving coping skills and see how you feel...I think this could really help.:)

At the top of the main forum page you'll find our Resources. They are filled with great anxiety management tips. From stress lowering breathing and muscle relaxation instructions. ..to guided meditation. ..and specific help with derealization/depersonalization.

Check them out and see if any look helpful to you.:) Keep posting with us as well if you find it helpful. We understand care and support is key!

Scaredy Cat

Kanji....

...well there you go...exact same advice from two moderators at the exact (almost) same time!!

Hey, if nothing else...we are
consistent...and you will find support here, lol!!

Talk soon,

S.C.

Thanks for the quick answer..now i also have to ask how bad it is ? Should i get help immediately ?

Your answers scared me a lot than i thought they would, and i was not giving this so much importance since it only happens if i`m home alone at night and i experienced a lot of stress from studying in that day.

Oh no! No need to be scared!!!

We just want you to know that you need not suffer with anxiety...and that there is a wide range of help available...according to your wants and needs.

That's all! :)

S.C.

Oh Thanks for posting that link, I Love it. I love the sound of rain and thunder!


I'm sorry our answers scared you, we really didn't mean for you to be scared. We just wanted to give helpful advise. Please keep posting and ask any questions you have and we will surely help you with some advice and a lot of support.

No problem Lisa, glad you liked it.

I feel like I have a strange personal connection with the rain, those condensed drops of joyfulness and so refreshing, I fell like walking in the rain could cure me of anything.

A question to anyone reading this: how you started to accept and understand this is no longer something you`re imagining, that you do have a problem, you do have to go to a specialist and get checked and maybe even take some medications ?