Thank you everyone for the kind replies. I actually did phone the Dr. to see if I could talk to him about
restarting and how much I should take and whether or not I should start up again with the Lexapro I had at home before getting scheduled to see him. However, when I called the nurses were kind of rude and told me they could not let me talk to the Dr. without an appointment and that if this was really an emergency I should go to the ER. Yup, I know great advice, right?
Anyway I remembered the name of the Dr.'s main nurse (the girl that spoke to me was new) and she remembered me and was much more helpful. She told me the Dr. was not in the office that day, so I would have to wait until Wednesday of this week but to call early Monday morning so they could possibly squeeze me in of someone didnt show up. So since I couldn't get an answer and pretty much know my Dr.'s attitude on these things I decided to take the 5 mg's to start.
I know these things may not work as well the second time around so I may have to change the dosage or switch but I have a good feeling it will work for me again and my faith is telling me it will.
Speaking of faith, I have always come out of each bout with an anxiety a lot stronger. The first time I beat anxiety I went on to have a great career as a kickboxer, winning multiple state and national titles. For someone with anxiety, I took the anxiety of "pre fight jitters", dealing with crowds, and the stress of another man trying to punch my head in, surprisingly well. I think I never would have tried those things had I not had and overcome anxiety.
My new challenge in life is the birth of my beautiful baby boy. I look at him and see him as my new priority in life, my everything. Financially, my wife and I have been struggling a bit which is why it is so important for me to nip this in the bud and not wait because I need to be able to work and function.
Having developed the skills to cope with all this the first time around with CBT, its been easier for me to push through the day and get out of the house in order to not let anxiety overtake my life. I know if I were to stay at home and think of it as my "safe place", I would never leave but I would also not be heping myself. So the CBT skills work for me...only that right now I have to relearn the skills since it has been so long since I last used them. But the difference of the anxiety this time around is its not like what I went through when I was 20. Back then I didnt know what was going on and thought I had something serious like a brain tumor or who knows what else....now I at least know what this is and how to deal with it. Even if its hard I will beat this...my faith tells me I can and I think this is part of some bigger change in my life, for the better. At least, it works for me to think that way.
As for my health, thankfully, I recently got an annual checkup which is covered by work's insurance and everything came back pretty normal, except for some liver enzymes....but thats about
it. So im taking my multi vitamins and eating healthy so hopefully that will help as well.
Im having a lot of trouble sleeping though...about
3 nights now with almost 0 sleep. I need to talk to my doctor about
that as well because the no sleeping is probably making me feel worse during the day. I dont like taking prescribed sleep aids....or over the counter as they are usually antihistamines that cause anxiety anyway.
Do you guys have any natural sleep remedies that have worked for you?
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