PTSD and Need Help!!!

I am usaully strong but I need some encourgement. I have been suffering panic attacks due to PTSD. It NOT fun! Ill do my best to explain this. Last October I wrote a letter to my dad say that i want him out of my life. This was MUCH needed. I am glad I did. He physical abused me for 18yrs. I kept it a secert from everyone until I told my old therapist. My sisters do not belive the abuse happened. They both think i making it up. Why would I do that? Of course I didnt. This in it self is causing caos in the whole family. I feel like its all my fault but i know it entirely not.

My sister who lives near me has been teasing me saying that my dad is in town, when he is not. She just wants to see my reaction. I guess she likes the after math of severe PTSD. I found out that my dad is actualy officuly be going to be in town August 7-11. This is causing me anixiety because my sister is constantly asking me to do things when he is going to me in town. He is dead to me! I fear that I will have to see him. This is what is driving me anxiety through the roof. I have been doing a lot of mindfulness, pmr, etc. I need help! Fortuneity I see my therapist tomorrow afternoon.

Sorry for this lengthy post!!!

Post Edited (curlybekah) : 8/6/2015 7:57:03 PM (GMT-6)

Hi there Curly.

I, too, have PTSD, though mine is from military experiences. I know you said have been doing a lot of mindfulness stuff. That's great! When I was at the heat of my conditions while I was still in, mindfulness was the one thing that really helped me besides the medication. Please do check out our Resources section and keep posting with us, we're a great community full of like-minded people!

CB,

I am very sorry to hear you are going through this rough time currently.:( I am also sorry to hear that you are not getting family support, this must be so hard.

I encourage you to set your boundaries, and stand firm that talk regarding your father is strictly off limits. (like when your siter teases about it) Try not to react if it comes up, simply walk away.

You do not need to speak of him or see him if you do not wish too. If you need to just 'lay low' for the time he is is town, then you can choose to do so...this could help you to feel safe, and not trigger the PTSD.

Keep up the great work with the self help, and the things you are working on with your therapist.

You are on the right track to managing your challenges!

Be well and keep us posted, we are here for your support!

S.C.